my blog is now officially VRE ALERT!

i had a great weekend!
saturday was simple dinner at bukit panjang.. and then sunday was a great day hanging out together with ezah!!!!
it was a chill out day with loads of titbits, loads of laughs, watched the coffin and saw 3!!!
all gruelsome but fun just being a potato couch! (:
more of these will make me a much happier being.

finally settled everything for SIM. like, finally.
it's not an easy path to walk, but it will work out fine eventually.
i will persevere, i will have strong determination!
lovely. i'm another small step to my big big dream!

wait for my resolution! hahaha.
anyway, i just wanna thank people around me who has always been encouraging me thru these bad and rocky and tired times, and thanks to colleagues who make things wasier at work when it's all tooo stressful.

and so merry christmass is all over and let's look forward to the next episode,
happy new year.
christmas was alright, to me it was just another occasion, nothing much but ptobably cos of the blues i've been getting, this year's christmas seems to be blue too...
one year passed just like that, in a glimpse.
the best presents i've got were from likim and ulrica, hahahahaha! thanks girls!
what's up for new year girls???

i'm looking forward to a new phase of life, a new year ahead of me, more dreams to be achieved, more things to strive for. yearn to be a better being. :)

let's all look forward with more resolutions of the year, and one on top of my list, is to be happier :)

i am NOT emo.
i'm just down :(

i think i just need to be alone,
to peace out,
and to sort out overwhelming feelings and thoughts...

i don always need fancy parties or crazy partying..
i'm missing time when i could sit and chill and let the clock tick by,
those mellow times watching dvds, watching movies,
munching titbits, drinking hot chocolate...

faezah, WHEN??

hmmm..........
i want a mellow christmas this year, please?

等待是否是一种温柔？
放手又是否也是成全你的温柔？

peek-a-boo!!!
it's been some time since i last blogged.
time for some updates from me about my very boring life.
nothing exciting, nothing interesting, nothing very much actually.
it must have been PMS. i've been feeling either blue or black or grey.
my favourite colours yellow, orange, green fade away into the background of black emerges above all.

been hiding well and keeping myself to just myself very well.
for the first time in 2 decades i've learnt how to keep certain feelings just to myself, not showing, not saying, not sharing. i came to learn that not everything can be shared? and not everyone can just understand how you feel and think.... not that i want to keep things to just myseld and feel the ups and downs within myself, but i thought it would be good if it's sealed forever, unspoken, unforgotten...

i forgot to blogged about this previously. this year's borthday was splendid. i had different groups of celebrations, each a surprise. particularly surprised me was a phone call from someone so unpredictable.

'hello, may i speak to ms. joyce please?'
'yes, speaking. this is?'
'hi, i'm calling from starhub, tmr is your birthday right?'
'ermmmm.. ya.... and....?'
'we're giving you a voucher for you to upgrade your handset.'
(puzzled!!!)
'BUT I'M NOT A STARHUB USER!!'
' i know~ hahahahahahaha~'

that laughter came, sending a feeling sooooo familiar, soooo near yet sooooo soooooo far. i knew immediately who it was. he also assumed i knew who he was, even though i really did know who he is.

andrew.

what a surprise. but somehow i appreciated that very much. he never did forget my birthday and never failed to wish me every year. sometimes, thinking bad, how could we have go on for 4 good years with such huge upas and downs, and leaving each other puzzled about our feelings for each other. hahahaha. how young we were. not knowing what exactly what love is, what a relationship really means. but of course, he's someone who REALLY did know me well... and i guess he still did.. and i'm glad we kept our friendship going. and we also did conclude we were much better off as friends....

and then i thought i should reflect, and sometimes i think.... many a times, probably a couple should just remain as very good friends so there are lesser conflicts? lesser pains?

说着让人伤心的话你还是温柔
忽然感觉一切都是如此的荒谬
当夜色慢慢落成一片漆黑在你背后
当我说出你最想要的分手
你也有你的好对我来说却不够
而我的青春不该只是等着你回头
做你的情人
不如做你最好的朋友
最后给你的爱是你想要的自由
爱的代价 有苦有乐 这一次啊
对爱有多些了解
虽然要把苦与痛都忘记 要经过好久
我不怪不愿你
爱也曾经美丽
爱的代价 我付出了
放你去吧 对爱又多些了解
一定有个人会在这世界
只为我等候
看天空是那么宽
不再低着头的我要往前走

isn't it true? so true.

actually, i really don't mind being single and happy, rather than being coupled up and feel the kind of pains i see people face and deal with every single day. paranoia overwhelms me.

oh... on a lighter note... there are so many things i wanna do and learn!!!
i'm gonna start my degree really soon. hurray!!!
i'm going to sign up these courses one by one:
sign language
basic knitting
malay language

let's all live life to the fullest while we can!! :)

i wanna watch twilight!!!!
edward, here we come!

good morning 22!
thanks ezah, likim and ulrica for the sumptuous meal last night!
and thanks for the really practical present that i guarantee chop need to use!!!! hahahahaha!
u girls rock. u're appreciated! :)
been eating alot for my birthday celebration, but i'm really loving it!
im looking forward to this evening where i will have dinner with mum, sis, and my 'boyfriends' :):)

yay!
welcome 22. according to likim, we are welcoming adulthood!
hahahaa

for the past few days:
Standard Chartered Run 10km,
crab dinner (yes. again) at nan's place
shopping with lao da.
a surprse dinner treat from my lovely colleagues :)
let my pictures speak on behalf of me.

fat+ugly.
poor complexion.
out of shape.
others are flowers, while i'm a housefly.
how sad.

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

Bachelor of social work (not an easy path but it will work out, 6/6 to go!)
Japan
Melbourne
Turkey
New Zealand
there's nothing i want more than world peace.

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