my gastric is haunting me like crazy. it's so uncomfortable, i dunno what's wrong. roars.

crayfish pasta from pizza hut.

and yes, MAKANSUTRA.

yesterday morning, i had my dim sum and we watched blades of glory. we had a hearty laugh in the theatre, like... ultimately funny. hahhas. and yar, yt + joyce is like a combo of noise and explosion of laughters. lols. luckily the theatre was rather empty. hee.
we're contemplating to watch shrek 3 next monday. maybe. ((:

当你看着我
我没有开口已被你猜透
爱是没把握还是没有符合你的要求
是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲

我还爱着一个人
但愿回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退?

three cheers to pauline. it's happy to see her back to herself. we may not meet, but she's certainly one precious friend. (:

niteys.

-yup yup yup.

there's this song, that speaks for alot of people's hearts.
sharing it:

EPICA: Linger
It feels so warm when you are near
You are all I want to feel
Tell me now, is this for real?
It’s hard to breathe
We’re all lost and travelled high, cannot find my peace of mind
When the sun will rise again, we’ll fly away

Take the stairs to the stars
Wander long, travel far
Someday

A summer breeze makes all of our winters freeze
Autumn leaves
There’s no chance for spring’s romance
We linger on but leave the past behind us
Old lovers live it all anew
But chances are so few

Windows open up to life
Put your worries all aside
Sacred silence closes doors for opened eyes
Take the stairs to the stars
Wander long, travel far

Someday
Always

A summer breeze makes all of our winters freeze
Autumn leaves
There’s no chance for spring’s romance
We linger on but leave the past behind us
Old lovers live it all anew
But chances are so few
And choices are so true...

check it out: http://youtube.com/watch?v=JEYbViYJBd8

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met yingtao for his friend's performance at RP, the concert was named E.P.I.C, it was alright, but i kinda like the different kind of genres of music they presented. kinda different from many other concerts we've been to. anyway, was there to support his friends (:
dinner at pastamania, together with his friend who didn't eat but watched us eat. hahas. an interesting person though. they were talking alot about their BB's stuffs so i'm just listening n laughing most of the times.
tmr, we might be watching blades of glory, i hope there are timings that could fit well. and dim sum for breakfast, i'm looking forward! yummy yum! (:

she spoke of they n their past. all about they and their past, trying to remind me how outta the picture i am supposed to be. speaking of which, i really don't want to mention who kinda got into the picture right from the beginning.
some things are just overrr, and done with. since decades & centuries! get it over please.
stop acting like u're the one who everyone puts into their eyes and souls, stop illusioning u're pretty when u're just some average girl, not drop dead gorgeous at least! don't try putting people down and making people feel inferior, cos if that's how you want to remind me of my flaws, back off! thank you!

-lingering, that's right.

met likim today for dinner. it was a hearty meal, a hearty chat. catching up, chilling and talking about what we might want to do in future. hahhas. seems like this is the kind of topic that revolve around us, probably age is catching up on us too.. hahahhas!
all in all, it was a nice catch up.

IR quiz today was good, manageable. (:

'would you be there to love to be with me, would you swear that your love is always true, would you say that u'll always be the one, to take my breath away... would you be there?'

saturday night never fail to mean TIREDNESS. it has never been once that i can sleep real late on saturday nights.. not that i don't want to, but i can't. i knocked out at 9pm after i signed out of msn. omg. and i woke up at 11am this morning. well, i dunno.. hahhas! life during weekends has since been lifeless...
tmr is IR quiz, and i haven do much. well, i have to turn in early, wake up early since the paper is at 11am tmr during lecture. bless me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA!!! (:

june will be busy busy for me. projs, work, PLAY, PLAY & PLAY! hahahs. and i'm off to a genting trip with my cousins&sister and aunts! hahhas! it's gonna be hell loads of FUN.... theme parks, thrill rides, mahjong, poker cards, and the older generation would be heading to the casino, we'd be having real fun in the room. hahhas! at least, that's wad i foresee, at the moment! (:

sometimes, i cannot help but think i have no significance at all. not only does she care less, not only she made it like i'm transparent, i'm like a non-existent being. slowly, it felt like, my presence is insignificant, and all i ever exist, is for the sake of money.
and then it also seems the same among people, like my existence is as scattered as air... nobody seems to feel that i'm of importance... or am i just not important, or useful in anyway?
u noe how mum talks to u only about money and nothing else? and when she talks to your sister, it's always about EVERYTHING ELSE?
u noe how friends come to you, not asking about how u're doing but how all of ur other friends are doing?
u noe how guys come to you, asking and checking out about the girls around u, and telling u that u're so guy-like, just like their buddies? and all ur other gal friends are princesses?
u noe how people always make decisions and tell u only when decisions are made?
and u noe how people expect u to be accomodate to them, and when u can't make things the way they want, u're like a fool?

HAHAHHAS. i was wondering, maybe.. this is how much people see in me. (:

enough of emo-ing. like, what's the point of emo-ing when after all the emo episodes, all these are still going to come back. but i think i should need some emotional management class, or anger management class, or maybe, i just need some serious counselling before i turn schizo.

was talking to angeline yesterday at work, then we realised how fast the semester will end, and then there's holidays then the next sem starts and ends in a flash. then we wondered what we wan to do. uni or work? well, got money then uni lor, no money then work lor.. hahhas. that's wad concluded, but i think it's time to take some serious planning. i'm at this point of diversity, i think i might work and study at the same time. (:
nah, dunno. just clear tmr's test first then say.

read ezah's post, and she blogged about an article in CLEO magazine, girls think that they are better off single. which i totally agree, cos i've been single since 4 years ago, and i'm happy, and free.. cos i'm not in love. i don't deny the fact that it could be nice if you have someone for you there, but i'm sure it's only sometimes when u yearn that there's someone close for you. friends can do the same! at least, for me, i'm happy for i have so many lovely friends, and i have many people whom i can turn to in times of need, and i know most of them are always there for me, at least mentally they will be. (:

i'm meeting kim tmr for dinner! yayys! (:

yawns. nites.

i have a power-pack student... have always been chatting to stella's mum and dad during her lessons, and just yesterday i realised her dad has studios, yar, studios(literally)! and he works with celebrities, FAMOUS celebrities all around the world. like, HELLO?! i didn't know that... her mum was telling me how those magazines fake the celebrities' looks, 90% of them are photoshop-ed or air brushed, and the other 10% are for the fact that the celebrities are wrapped in thick coats of make ups to start off with. as we chat along, she told she has a company too. and what does she do? she provides gym equipments, and manage gyms all around the world. like, ONCE AGAIN, ALL AROUND THE WORLD. she told me singapore's most powerful gym is in SMU, cos they have the best equipments, latest equipments for everything. not one equiment each but ROWS of them. hahhas. no wonder she looks so toned everywhere! it's good to chat with them when i really have got nothing to do. (:

watched Amazing Grace with Stephen. hmm, okie i think it's a really good show, it's really boring, like BORED TO THE CORE (initially), but it's a show u really need to listen and understand. it's about a noble man, named William Wilberforce. a man who made trading of slaves in european countries stopped completely. i was so moved, and i was at brim of tears more than thrice.
alright, that companion of mine dozed off in the show, it's not even half way through the show and he was sound asleep, yes... really sound asleep. cos he din respond at all when i was commenting on something.. hahahas! he went out of the theatre asking me what the show was about, and said that people with poor english and literature standards will never understand such shows. hahahhas!
dinner, laughs, and yup something unexpected(or rather the whole episode of the amazing grace the dinner and the laughs were unexpected, but the purpose of all these were rather expected.) i laughed it off. by the way, that's my forte.

there's IR presentation and IB presentation tmr.... omg...

i wanna watch the pirates of the carribean! and for everyone's information, i HAVEN EVEN WATCH SPIDERMAN3 FOR GOODNESS SAKE! i needa go catch some movies real soon!!!
spiderman 3.
pirates of the carribean.
next.
priceless.

if anyone watched the 9pm show, u'd probably also love this song in the show:

Redwan Ali- Would you be there
If i were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If i feel good, would u slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care.
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
And never look back....
Would you be there to love to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one...
To take my breath away...
Would you be there?

click here for this really nice song:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=_GxpOsckgHs&mode=related&search=

good night everyone.

- contemplating.

i don't know what wrong food i ate! i'm having a really bad diarrohea! arghs!!! i hate those churnings!
nonetheless, i think i had a productive night. cos i finished the IB learning point ppt slide, i did the IR ppt slides as well. to do list done, am now just surfing the net aimlesly, don't know what else to do.

i'm thinking if i should go yoga tmr morn. but well, if only this stomach heals by then. roars.

nitey everyone.

peek-a-boo! i'm back for blogging! was busy for days!! hees. (:

fnally, after SEVERAL attempts. hahhas (: from top left, brandon, SL, bottom left: joyce, ezah!

chalet photos to be up soon, when they send it to me.. hees. (:

Monday:
i had a real bad palpitation this morning, like the whole heart was choking out of my mouth and i jumped out of bed. i snoozed my alarm at 9am and i feel deep sleep till i got samsam's sms. i felt like dying. the msg said we had this survey thingy to do at 12.45pm in school, which i know, but i over over over slept! oki, when i saw this msg, it was 12pm, and i needa get to sch by 12.45pm?? how impossible? but i made it anyway, of cos with the help of singapore's best service, the taxi. hahhas.. i made it to sch, and guess what? HAHHAS. well, it was blk 73 level 03, room 18. i think i heard sam say it was 72-03-18, and so i rushed up to blk 72 like in a lightning bolt with my 'gonna split legs', and then i was at level 3, blk 72. saw jiahao and then was asking where is room 18??? he say, here where got room 18?? only got until 16. HUH??? omg... and then i took out my phone and saw erika's sms, it was BLK73LEVEL3ROOM18. alright. i had to dash there like crazy again, and when i was finally there, i felt such a relief pls. hahhas! but my legs were like giving way. the race kinda split my legs.. and the inner thighs hurt like crazy, yes i know. why the inner thighs. god knows. hahhhas.

but today was a good day all in all, cos the toes( camen was sick she din come to sch and so din get to join us, another time soon k darling?) went to bugis for pastamania, shopping, walking around and we went to this really nice desert shop at liang seah street. SUPER-DUPER-YUMMY! we had, tang yuans, almond paste, MANGO SAGO, and ginko barley with beancurd. yiipppee! it was wonderful and fantastic. we actually wan to go ice monster after the desert place, but we were too bloated (except for the super pixie erika) to go. we shall go the next time! (: and also, we've planned to have chocolate fondue after the common tests at erika's place. yayys! three cheers the toes!

liang seah street, just behind bugis parco junction.

the nice desert place. (:

after a few attempts, we manage to do it, but i think we were trying to squeeeze that we forgot to smileeeee properly!! hahahas! (:

on my way after dinner, i met brandon at dhoby ghaut mrt platform. hahas. such coincidence.

today there was a scdf and singapore prisons service fair at the atrium. SCDF was what i always wanted, and today i got a better idea of it, and i realised it is ok if i don't have less than 500degrees of short sighted. hahas. i always tot i wont be able to make it to be a paramedic since my eyesight failed the pre requisite, but the officer told me eyesight is not the most important. so i still have a chance, provided my NAPFA is at least silver. think i have to train real hard for that! but before that, i think i'm really inspired to be a prison officer as well. i'm always thinking that i would want to work in an organisation where i can lend a helping hand, show my care and passion for people who would need it. as paramedic can fulfill my life's objective, prison officer do much as well. i'd apply for Prison's officer to go for the attachment, and the officer mentioned that i could detach myself afte the attachment if i felt it wasn't suitable for me. and also, i'd apply for MYCS, or teaching and SCDF of cos, that's the kind of career i would want to embark on. no office for me please. thank you. i'm truly inspired, and i know i'm not lost in my future, i know what i wan, and i'm looking forward to what i wan.

erika suggested the toes all go to try singapore prison's service, and then we would say,'don mess with us.' hahas. oh btw, the officer was also a diploma holder from np business, which further prove my theory right that not all business dip holders want to do business, just like me! hahhas! she'd just inspired a lost soul in poly (: the most inspiring thing, is to lead the people who needs a second chance in the society, back to the right path, and we would be captains of lives. i'm inspired, i'm driven (:

yingtao went to genting already, thanks alot for sending us all home last nite. hmm, ezah is right, u're sweeeet. always going the extra mile. HANNAR, THANK YOU A GAZILLION LOADS. i know i'm always mean to you. i think i'm gonna miss his presence alot when he get enlisted. by then i'd be so dreaming he would shout, ' can u please just shuddup?' to my face. arhhh... how time really flies.

long post. adios!

recently, those old school songs are coming back to me. my favourite genre's back haunting me. there's this particular song that i really wan to share with everyone, i used to love it, n still love it.


Nightwish - Sleeping Sun Lyrics
The sun is sleeping quietly
Once upon a century
Wistful oceans calm and red
Ardent caresses laid to rest
For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my nights
A truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime
I wish for this night-time to last for a life-time
The darkness around me - shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you
Sorrow has a human heart
From my God it will depart
I`d sail before a thousand moons
Never finding where to go
222 days of light
Will be desired by a night
A moment for the poet`s play
Until there`s nothing left to say

and also check out: Opeth, Within Temptation, Sonata Artica(one of mojo,jojo's fave), Kamelot, Green carnation, Dream Theatre, The Gathering and of cos, Theatre of Tragedy.
They're like forgotten by most, it's a total addiction, let their music hit u softly hard (:

i shan't comment much on those really irritating grievance that i want to say and rant. ezah and yingtao would already be numbed and irritated by them too. all i want to say is, those who looks innocent, please beware.
i cannot help but say that those who looks innocent, eeews and eeeeks at all the dirty little talks amongst girls' talks ain't as innocent as who they seem, n what we see. those we seems gentle and demure, where guys seeks n goes all out to show protection n care, are acts these people put on to gain extra attention and love. i don't want to sound like because i'm those loud and tough girl, i'm jealous of those who are labelled 'handle with care'. but it's totally getting on my nerves how some immatures 'handle with care' have to act and behave.
don't they think multiple partners are a risk? or are they honoured to be also labelled as an 'adventure' on top of 'handle with care'?
i think all they need is one, 'HAZARDOUS'.
sorry to those who don't understand but i needa rant. some people just got on my nerves n inflicted a kind of disappointment n pain in me.

nites all. (:

i'm supposed to go yoga, but it was raining heavily. hence, i din go.

13.05.07
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOJO!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GREATEST BUDDY, EZAH! (:
14.05.07
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER JIEYING!!! (:

today i successfully went to yoga class in the morning... (: yayys!
wednesday.. i have a 'date'! hee hee hee! (: *oops* (ezah's gonna make a deal with the word DATE!)
i can't wait for 20th to come!!! omg!!! yet another 'date'. hahahahahhahs!
yippee-ya-ya-yippe-yippee-yaaaaaa~

i have a new addiction! i love wall's moo sandwich ice cream! omg! it's simply super-duper yummy! (:

sometimes, i dunno what makes the great deal when everything isn't a great deal but eventually blows up to be one. what's a deal, what's not? who's the deal, who's not? decide for urself.

-do away with trial & error, know ur formulas right, for everything in life. OVWs unite! (:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MOTHERS IN THE WORLD.

we went to manhattan fish market to celebrate and treated mum with dinner for mothers' day. the foos there, is F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!! (: mei and i enjoyed alot! haha!
photos up here:
on the way home from plaza singapura. in the train! hahas
i have humungous face!
nice! (:
so freaking act cute!!! my sister made me do it! arghs!
actually we don't look so alike leh! a student in pianoforte says that we are like twins. that explains my sister's expression in this pic! HAHAHAHA!!

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alright, Angeline and i have decided to put this into action and hope that it works. we need alot of support from friends and family, cos this is the starting point and this is where the business would start going anywhere. please support!! (:

perhaps, from next week onwards, i might want to attend most lectures. i feel myself so slacking that i'm more than restless. it's getting from bad to worse. where did my resolutions of having a planned schedules go to? omg. i'm tired, really tired. i kept snoozing on my alarm clock every morning. i'm trying hard. i will...

next week, it's lectures, tutorials, yoga, exercise, working.... everything. i have to keep up, i don't want to be a slacker anymore. but of cos, some lectures are really too........ erms... can i say, boring and i think i might be able to cope without the lects. i don't know. but i don't want people to keep thinking that i'm a lazy bum that i'm always skipping lects.

i'm a good girl. HAHHAHAS!

maybe next sem i won't be choosing HR anymore. i think maybe marketing is the kind of drive that i need to motivate me. i'm determined to catch up with all the work now. i'm determined to get good grades this sem. yayys! i'm so resolution-ed! (:

i miss sabrina. she used to be the surge of motivation in school, we hardly get to see her now. jia you girl!!! (: loves n misses.
i miss rain. she used to be the best companion for yoga. now the time table clashes so badly that we hardly get to meet. i'm so sad. misses. meet up for yoga next week k? (:

had dinner with ezah, xia, shuo lun and yingtao. bear lao da got lesson can't make it, brandon had something on in school so he din turn up last min. it was fun! pics up laterr (:

slacked in the library a while with camen and nancy, took alot of pics that we really like. up laterr! (:

off to tutorial. tata!

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see that you belong with me
you might thinkI don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
it's time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

totally addicted to this song. (:

as mentioned, i met yingtao for dinner, we went to bugis.
pastamania + ice monster!
fabulously, super-duper-yummy! hahahhas!
had a good shopping with gifts for the birthday people, and then there was this sony mp4 that caught our eyes, omg! it's sooooo nice and the sound system is like a home stereo please? hees. hmm, mayb we can get that for his birthday present? since he's gonna have a so lonely birthday in tekong. d:

this song, that he made me listen when we were on the bus to bugis, it's a really sweet song! what's more? the male lead singer, is my fave comedian, xiao gui! hahhas! (:

[ 爱的主旋律 ]

男：是你在那个雨季 走进我生命 带着一点任性 和温柔的表情
女：是你在那个雨季 赶走了孤寂 温暖的笑容 换我仅有的甜蜜
男：天上一万颗星星我却只看见你 你说这是幸运 还是不可思议
女：身边有太多风景 我却停在这里 说我傻的可以 还不是因为你
男：是你的声音 女：带给我勇气
男：恋爱的频率
女：直到我心底
男：如果你愿意
女：是的我愿意
合：带着我幸福的主旋律

男：从前的实际
女：现在我相信
男：天空会放晴
女：爱会更甜蜜
男：如果你愿意
女：是的我愿意
合：爱的主旋律 永远唱下去

okie, now there's this really weird thing i MUST mention! last nite i dreamt of this person, it seems like he popped out from no where and how did he even get into my dreams?! i dreamt of yuan zhen. PLEASE?! and then the next thing i know, is xia msged me she saw yuanzhen on sunday. what's worse? just this morning nancy and i decided to go JCS for jap elementary class, and was about to msg xia for the course price, and she saw yuanzhen in the school. further confirmed that he's in the elementary course too! oh, what's more?? HE ALSO MSGED ME TO SAY THAT HE SAW XIA ON SUNDAY! so told him that my fren and i will be planning to join the elementary class, and he actually suggested that i also take the sunday morning class so that we can be in the same class and he's got a study buddy then.
okie, a series of coincidence eh?
background information for those who dunno who he is, he's my ex-bf. someone whom i owe great apologies to, someone whom, even till now i feel sorry towards. but everytime he sms me, he's like so cheerful, like the whole drama and the episodes hasn't happen before. haha.
well i was young and i din know what's right or wrong, now that i know and we've matured PLUS he's like the ONLY ONE whom can remain as mutual friends, and my sister, ying ying all like him (as a friend of cos!), so why not a study buddy? (:

i have a date with so many people on thursday, morning i'm going to find ah ma, then meet yingtao, and dinner with EZAH! (:
13th may. it's mother's day, but most importantly, it's SOMEONE'S birthday! and we're going to TPSC! oh i can't wait!!! (:

nitey.

DON'T STARE STARE LEH! hahahhas!!! (:

jewels of the hearts. (:

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

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