i got good frens around me who lend me helping hands in time of need.
they give me the greatest support whenever i need it.
thanks ezah for almost gonna help me with my baking, but thanks chin nan most for settling the major prob for my event. and of cos my nua toufu who never fail to be there. haha! (:
in times of need, there are people whom i turn to. and they know who they are, u know who u are. YES YOU PEOPLE!!! LOVES LOADS, even though we haven got time to meet for long. misses!

by the way, the ulcers are back. i dunno why, and i'm getting sick and tired of this whole entire episode.

finally getting to see xia on sunday. (:
btw, emails also make me smile.

workload pile like mountains. i feel like a tired tortoise with a heavy shell.
why don't money pile the same way?

i need a little break from all these.

hello! i'm back...
it's been some days ago since i last blogged...
was busy with school work...

hmmm, actually nothing in particular to blog about.
watched three movies lately..
game plan, beowulf and enchanted. only 1 out of the 3 is nice i would say.

game plan is two thumbs up (u can consider the fact that i LOVE the ROCK a tonnes), beowulf is funny but it's cos of it's crappiness and lameness, and enchanted is just.... so... not what i would say nice.

piano lesson today was fantastic, cos i laid my fingers on the grade 5 exam pieces, and chose the three pieces already. hmmm, i picked 2 classical and 1 jazz. i quite like all three, and i'm waiting for the cf to come to me so i can put them on repeat in my mp3 player. haha!
1. sonata in A
2. romance
3. jacson blue street
i can so predict i need to practice and practice and more practice. that would mean spending MORE TIME in PF. hmmm.... it's ok as, i LOVE it. was talking to jan and told her my concerns. i'm not sure if i can take the exam in september next year, quite scared i don have enough time to practice enough. and she told me it's possible. but in addition told me other than mastering the three pieces, i need to master majors, minors, appegiaos, contri motions, broken chords, sight reading and aural. hmm.. how does it sounds? VERY GOOD! cos i got less than a year for these. congratulations joyce! hahahas!

i'm missing those days where we always meet up. the usual people, the kind of hang out. mahjong.. starbucks.. craps.. lames.. steamboat.. drinking.. everything. :(
maybe chin nan is right... we are slowly moving into our own lives.
where are all the people i once hang out and love so muchieee? sighs.

some things are meant to be sweet.
erika's msges. camen's msges.
sweetness (:

jin nan said something so nice i smiled to myself on the train. he wants to bake a cake for me on my birthday. hmmm... and i THOUGHT he's 'no heart' . okies, my bad. (:

i have sooo many lovely friends that i seriously should don care about THE ONE who's making life a tad difficult.

yeo kee kee, sim hwee hwee! ha! we are good! we spend time constructively, making us look and feel like nafa students and not np bs student! hahas.

tmr is presentation day. friday too. bless me.

i was called a hush puppy with those long silky heavy wavy hair that i once loved so much.
and then i decided for a change.
plucked out the courage and snap away the thoughts, i cut away most of my hair.
hahahas!

ta-da~~~

projects pile in slowly and slowly.. then it piles like a bucket of shit.
i think i might not breathe soon.

it was muffins + mahjong last night.
it was work today.
today's piano lesson was great! i LOVE it. and the progression goes on well. lovely.

let the pictures talk!

i clicked thru pages in youtube and eventually clicked this song, man.. i realised it never fails to bring emotions to me.

Aerosmith - I Don't want to miss a thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

it's been a hassle these days. with all the check ups and all.
and i'm just officially certified to be allergic to nuts.
seems like i have A TONS of allergies with food, and each of them give me ultra trouble.
enough said. i will be good, i won't eat food that give me reactions.
i'd be fine soon. and soon i'd be gulping down a bowl of pasta with slurps and splash.

i like the meet up at airport the other day. it was alot of laughs with botak jones(Commando SL), b-random (brandon) and ezah. nice people who cared alot about my auto immune disorder. (:

let the picture speaks for itself.

it's painful, really.
i dunno how i should voice it, it's just painful.
i talk like i have short tongue, i prefer not to talk.
i eat like there's a zillion bees stinging me, i prefer not to eat.

jeerin says i'd lose a few kg from this, i was shocked to hear myself saying. ' i'd rather be fat then.'
yes, it's THAT painful.
i went to the polyclinic, and the last remedy is to be referred to the specialist.
and the appointment date is yet to be confirmed.
so, the agony goes on...

name me the painkillers u have in your shelves, u name it, i have it, and taken it.
it doesnt seems to help, really.
ponstan? panadol? panadol extra for stronger pain relief? paracetamol?
throw them, they don help. at least, they don help me!

how about naming the ulcers creams?
oracort? bonjela? difflam?
and what have you.

and the doctor told me today, it's not just an allergic reaction.
it's notviral or bacteria.
it's something to do with ur low immunity system that doesnt seem to help heal anything in ur body, u need a specialist. they will do tests for you to check what is really wrong.
HAHAHAS! isn't that the most happening to hear?

but well, i've always known i've got low immunity. people who knows me well, knows it too. i cannot help it. let's see if the specialist would be able to help me. i hope (:

don worry, i'm optimistic. it's just ulcers and sores! it's really nothing much. ha!

thinking on the bright side, i've got fantastic ppl ard me. really.
ezah offered to take leave so i could walk in to a&e at ttsh. (now that thy refer me to ttsh specialist, it seems like she's gonna take that half day leave for sure. HAHAS!)
kee will supervise me on what i eat everyday.
phy racked her brains to help think of where are the good doctors she's been to.
yt called and asked if the condition is better, and ask me to go see chinese physicians for remedies. HAHAS!
lao da texted me to drink loads of water.
ven always ask me to take special good care.
lw offers hugs (:
ah ma is gonna make some traditional drink to help support the immune system
xiao gu is best of all. she's gonna make soup, cook chestnut drink and i don think i'd enjoy her dishes tmr but i shall be contented with just the soup.

and many many others. thanks to people ard me, i'm feeling ok even if it hinders me.

i'm so looking forward to the coming days. we are gonna meet brandon and COMMANDOR SL at changi airport for dinner on wednesday. ezah, let's seriously take a good look at SL if he's grw much more muscles! hahas.

this song plays on my tracklist repeatedly, liang jing ru FLY AWAY. i like.

***
some insights. the doctor mentioned auto immune, which i seriously got no idea what it is. was on the phone with ezah, and she enlightened me. auto immune in short means my anti bodies attack my own body! *gasps!*

i love rock climbing. :)
made new friends, learnt new sports, good companion EZAH!

the ulcers are stubborn, but it's ok. i shall go full body check up by next week.
i hope it heals soon.
i'm taking vitamin Cs, antibiotics, painkillers. all at once.

tmr is school again. so fast, 4th week of school.
kee and i are really gonna do regular exercises, whoever doesn't is NUA TOUFU!

i realise my hands can do so many things that i like.
the piano has fast progression, and i like.
canoe expedtions coming up soon, and i like.
new sport learnt, rock climbing, and i like.
knitting, something i like and will take up soon, I LIKE!

nites!

hmmm.... i think i should just go and die?
i feel tha the ulcers are due to heatiness, and i'm ending the course of my antibiotics and there's no progress, i got fed up, i down-ed:
1. 3 barley
2. 4 3-leg brand cooling water
3. 1 leng yang

OH FANTASTIC. i feel asthmatic now.

a phone call made the day.
2hours of talk and nonsense made the day.
thanks buddy!!! (: u're the man.
u rock my socks, tickle my toes.

i'm in pain.... serious pain... ulcers + those sores on my legs...
viral infection. bacteria.
i'm soooo prone to these, and i REALLY dunno why.
it's not contagious, don worry. cos people have been sharing things with me (really nice of these lovely friends not to be ostracizing me for the virus. it's not STD! no worries!)
now i'm unsure of what condition it is, cos it's just anitobiotics, more antibiotics and JUST ANTIBIOTICS.
someone please strip off the pain from me please?

it's time like this, when i miss someone so bad. i've been controlling myself badly not to sms, and i did, today. someone who would FORCE me to drink herbal tea even though i hate it, someone who would scold the hell outta me,i seriously don mind. where are you? just where the hell are you? :(

on lighter note, i have nice people around me. thanks pals.

i miss frosted chocolate malt, the way yingtao's creation should be.

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

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