for the past few days, i was busy, busy having FUN! hahahaha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI HUA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGINA MUMMY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PERSIS!
loves! (:

had loads of fun baking and shopping with ezah for the past two days! (:
met angeline for dinner, had a good talk and chill-ed at subway... we are so conscientious of our future we've planned most of our routes, i think i'm not so much in a dilemma anymore. haha!

sentosa tmr with nuas and phy.
heeren shopping with ezah on fri.
good weekends ahead!

i'm loving life to the MAX. (:

i hate projects. i hate school. i hate exams.
when the hell are all these gonna stop? it doesnt help with some people being not supportive.
but it's okieeeeeeeeeee... everything will be OVERRRRRRRRR soon.

i've got eclipse already, but i can't read!!! arghs! i needa study for ccm, i needa get iemp done. dammit with school work man! when the hell can all these stop!!! i really can't wait. i become grumpy, i become agitated and i become super ultimate PC when i talk about these redundant stuffs! i just wanna get the hell out of this shit.

we had a load of fun last nite. hahaha! it was fun-tastic.. we went east coast park where lao da, chin nan and ezah went for an evening run, and jenny, yan and i slacked at mac's. we went lau pa sat for dinner and xian joined.. hmm... what's the occassion?! it's EZAH'S FAREWELL PARTY. oh c'mon, what the hell, just talking about FAREWELL, it seems to sting me hard! BUT.... it's okieeeeee, i still have got a few days to feel her irritating presence. hahaha!
pictures to be up when i got them from lao da.

it's the time of dilemma now, where i'm not sure what to do next, where to go next, what to decide.... hmmm... cross roads.

aloha! and so i was away for a while. here i am!
it's been a very fulfilling, meaningful, fabulous past week.
where should i start first?

we met cindy for dinner on last wednesday night... it was a great dinner, and it was kinda sad.. cos it was sort of like a farewell? haha.. it's not that bad... cos cindy is back in indonesia already, and the next time i'd see her is in june. and of cos, i'd constantly look forward to june, COS!!! we have MAJOR plans! woooohoooo~

then the weekends were GREAT! i had intensive part time studies.
1. interpersonal skills
2. human development

i must say that i will NEVER REGRET taking this degree. cos i realised how much i really love it. no regrets even if it means it's tiring to study overlapping with poly now. when i go to poly learning international business and international finance, i was so much thinking of human development. right after school on monday, i had interpersonal skills class, and the comparison posed were just way obvious that i LOVEEEE what i'm doing in the night. haha (:

these two modules teach things that are fabulous, and i'm really engrossed in class that time flies pretty fast. it's hard to share what i've learnt over the weekend, but i'm just sure that if anyone is into social services, or something along that line, this is the path anyone can choose to take!
i've found life, once again. (:

and not to mention that i have wonderful classmates!!! although i'm the youngest there, with the least life experience to share, i love hearing experiences from them. they are mainly from VWOs, some from ttsh, nuh, care centres, teachers, etc... i hear inspirations from them whenever we're out for lunch or dinner from class. they steer me even more towards to where i know i wan to go, to where i know i want to be.

oh!!! and i've finished reading new moon! hahaha! FABULOUSSS~! eclipse is awaiting me.
oh, im part of that cullen family, just like u do, ezah!
LOLS!

i'm revived. (:

and so i'n halfwaythrough new moon, and anticipating its end and proceed on to eclipse.
yea, say i'm obssessed but i've never been so engrossed.
and i typed 'vampires' and hit the search button.
i'm reading about it, now. (:

projects will soon be over, i know.

i'm having this withdrawal symptoms from edward cullen.
i need my new moon book soon.
or i might just be tempted to read twilight again.
in any case, i needa thank ezah, my boo, for the effort to help me buy the book.

i can so predict i'd need to buy eclipse just before i finish new moon, in case i'm feeling this dejection from the withdrawal of edward.
HAHAHAHA.
yes, i'm obssessed. WE are obssessed.
for a certain reason of cos.
READ THESE BOOKS TO FIND OUT! highly recommended! haha!
i need a dosage of vampire NOW.

-thanks alot, for everything. (:

i was irritated.
agitated.
frustrated.

that's the three most complicating feelings that you can feel at ONE point in time.
anger fused in, is it worth it?
NO.
and so confusion came along.
and i'm still confused.
sometimes, i think i just don't understand the complexities of a human mind.
it's just too hard to understand.
it's worse than trying to decipher the codes from a dan brown book.
i just that's why people are often, many a times referred to, as a BOOK.
'never judge a book by its cover', 'unreadable book', 'a new chapter in life'
bla bla bla.

if i could forward time, i would forward it.

if there's one thing i need to confess about my obsession at this very moment, it's twilight & VAMPIRES. (:

last night met kim and ulrica for dinner at the mushroom pot.
it was fantastic. we all agreed it's slightly better than the MK steamboat we had in bangkok. haha! it was fun having them around again, it's been quite long since our trip. we've decided to join the body sculpting class, so that we don grow too fat from all the eating that we always indulge in. YKK, do u want to join me too? hahaha!

i met ezah and cindy yesterday too! they went to np to find me after my lesson, the shopping spreee together at ps, mustafa and queensway was fantastic! hahaha! cindy is leaving singapore back to indonesia on the 18th, so we shall meet for lunch or dinner some time soon again. (:
ezah met loh wei cheng at ps for dinner while i met kim and ulrica, soooo.... we all eventually met after dinner and had a short walk together from orchard point to ps, where we parted and i took NEL home. it was great gathering, even if it's a short while. (: bon voyage ah loh! be back with souvenirs for us dude! haha.

and soooo. chocolates have been the large part of my life these days. could be due to stress? or is it all because i wanna be a ball at a faster pace? hahahah! i just can't do without chocolates. it's like a pillar to staying awake, and making me go on for the day. oh thanks ykk for the chocolates today, it's making me feel very fat, but it's the okie! cos it made my day too (:
we shall become balls, for all we care.

anyway, thanks phy alot alot for your help in IF. (:

who said i didn't care or mind about your absence? it mattered hell loads.

some pictures from bangkok trip:

happy birthday my nuas 08.01.08 (:
we ate like glutton, we felt like balls.

yan darl's party is over.
k-ing was fun and lovely. but everyone else was like singing so little i felt like i had a mini concert. hahaha!
got to see people whom i think i see once a year, that's at yab's birthday.. ppl like shane, zun cong, yan qing... shane was a load of fun, haha! we were soooo damn lame, ppl dun even know what we were talking about.

met ezah first at yew tee mrt, had loads of fun and i SIMPLY, SIMPLY LOVE.... IRRITATING HER, just like she's an irritant to me. EHH! ask me dun cry on 6th Feb!?!??! c'mon lor, u DON CRY also ah!!! u are gonna miss out on JOYCIEONGCIE PTE LTD kind of FUN, LAUGHTERS and JOYS. what more? u're so gonna miss irritating me!
i downloaded skype, JUST FOR YOU LOR.... and then whole skype ONLY GOT ONE CONTACT LOR... hahahahahaha! on the serious note, i think we need to really spend more time together these days ah... cos.. it's EXACTLY A MONTH away, and u have my words, I CONFIRM CRY ONE.

bon voyage to kailin and yan darling who's flying in an hr's time to HK.. enjoy and don forget our souvenirs! haha! i must say, i have this similar frequency with kailin that makes yan go ARGHS! hahaha!

i think i made someone angry. i'm not sure if he's really angry, but his sms-es seems like it. oops. sorry if i really did make u angry. (:

ANYWAY, this particular someone successfully pissed me off with his loud and brainless talks. loud and nonsensical comments. loud and irritating (this is the real kind of irritating) man! what's more? YT wasn't here to ask him please shut up, and i don wan to be the one asking to shut up cos it just sounds like i'm 'joking' with him, but ACTUALLY, many a times, I AM DEAD SERIOUS about asking him to shut that trap! I WAS TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY irritated by him for the whole entire night. i don wan to be mean, but i cannot control it. sorry.

i just couldn't help it but complain it to YT the momet i reached home. and... he said this line that i felt sooooooo TRUE. 'i'm sure everyone else around u then was also very irritated, they just don wan to show it.' FREAKING TRUE. cos..... when i told ezah what he said, i could see that frown. it proves that i am PRETTY NORMAL with the irritation.

phew. vented. full stop.
nites.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VENECIA DARLING!!!! (:
with loves.

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

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ibs is over, finally. not bad. i like.
rm was boring, i was stoning, sms-ing.
ykk's pics were hilarious, poser mama!
salad at cartel with yan was lovely, all the more lovely was the chat.
good nite.

-someone's taking over you, over the heart. somehow.

may i yell?
may i shout/scream at the top of my lungs?
it hasn't been so stressed for very long... it seems like we are all under mountains and hills.
sianztion! stressation! bombardments! blahhhhh!
what's so happy in january is probably nothing. maybe for a few lovely's birthday and then it all goes to zero again.
the only happy thing might be the return of the cheena people.
or maybe CNY that is coming in feb? ROARS!!!!!

i need food.
village, ichiban, sofra, pastamania, frosted chocolate malt, dark maltese, dark chocolates. or maybe what i need is some vienna international buffet?
i just feel like gorging in food, feel super ultra full and feel contented.
ROARS.
it's true food brings happiness, and it's even more true to say stress people need all the food in the world!

peace out. chill out.

-maybe all i need is you.

projects are piling high, stress level is going high, workload is stacking high, and i think blood pressure is going up high too...
i dunno why i have this stance of doing things last min, i don want to. BUT, it always happens to me!
tmr is WISP and FSF presentations, and thank goodness they are in control already. good thing i did not further procrastinate the FSF ppt slides or i would JUST DIE NOW!
i still have IEMP, IBS, IF, CCM and RM to do, now tell me if i could have 72 hours a day?? what's 24hours minus a few hours of sleep, a few hours of slack, and a few hours of stoning?
well, maybe i have poor time management? but i think i do things better last minute, cos i make sure things are done within the time frame.
why do i still have time blogging here? ooh! cos this is part of my slacking.stoning time? haha!

we stayed in school to do our stuffs till kinda late... it's the first time in the year, we gotta stay till sunset. oh btw, THANKS PHY for the royce chocolates as christmas pressie, i love it! (:

hmm, sometimes when it's only one person putting in the effort, it just doesn't work out. it needs two hands to clap, and i need reciprocation. i walk out of it only because i do not get similar response. please don blame me for being cold, please don get angry with me for being quiet, please understand my coldness in return of ur silence.

all i need now is, time.

new year's eve was steamboat at jin nan's place.
i enjoyed every bit of mahjong session, gossip session, emo session, talk cock session, everything. thanks the host mr. lee for the warmest hosting and thanks lao da for putting things together (:
everyone enjoyed, we count-ed down, and we welcomed the new year 2008 altogether.
it was another fruitful year spent together in 2007, we shall look forward to our new year, 2008 for some changes.

to the usuals: those who want to find gf/bf, hope wishes will be granted.
to my darlings: hope our studies, work and everything else goes smoothly for us.
to nuas: our new year resolution is to be able to fit into THOSE CLOTHES!
to my family: i still love u all as in 2007 (:

some pictures:

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

Bachelor of social work (not an easy path but it will work out, 6/6 to go!)
Japan
Melbourne
Turkey
New Zealand
there's nothing i want more than world peace.

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GR2
Jeerin.
Persis.
May.
Nelson.
yan darling.
Jenny darling.
xian darling.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
ruey shan.
botak.
zhiyong.
eric khoo.
LohWC.
Gayathri.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Erika.
Jasmine.
Samantha.
Camen.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia
Serve Cambodia
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
JiSheng.

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