Monday, April 30, 2007 ' 11:34 AM
kudos to me, darlings xia & ezah, wil-son! we conquered 8km of journey to coney island. (:
i think it was really fun, and i enjoyed it alot! along the way. ezah and i sang songs from boy bands, and we initially planned to sing the thousand legged worm from 1000 to 1, but we failed eventually! hahahhas! along the way to coney island, we were against current, so.... the last 1km towards the island was really tough, like after a long long time, we are at the original point. hahahahas! but nonetheless, we made it. the island seems like the island that was shown on the movie ' cast away'. nice scenery, great company, fantastic red bean buns to fill our stomachs! (:
here are the photos for the day!! (:
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01.05.07
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIN NAN! (:
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random:
i stood up a date with him again. yes, it means at the very last min i just said i've got something on n i didn't turn up. this time not too last minute though. i dunno, mayb i just dun feel comfortable. maybe i just dun feel like going. mayb, mayb, mayb, i REALLY don't need anyone. maybe not now, maybe not soon. sorry for being so evil to keep putting paper aeroplanes. but i think i dun like being wishy washy and i think i've made myself rather clear over this issue many many times, so... yupps. i hope u understand. i think all i need now are friends for i'm rather happy and contented with all i have now. i have to sincerely apologise that maybe u're not the one i feel for, but don get me wrong for u're a really nice friend. (:
xia asked me, ' would u choose the one u love, or the one who loves you.' i would say i choose the one i love, for if i dun love the person i dunno how can things start going right from the first step. but of cos, it's best to have someone i love and loves me! HAHAHAHHAS! i'm patient, and i can always wait. worse comes to worse, i'd be an OVW like everyone says i am! hahahs! (:
hmmm, watched 200 pounds beauty, it was a really funny show, it was hilarious i think i laughed so heartily in the theatre. hahahs! it's so real even though the scenes were rather predictable. it's like saying men are indecisive! for a moment they say that looks appeal to them, but when girls go plastic for them they want it all natural. oh c'mon! be realistic, no one can look so beautiful n perfect on the outer, what matters is from within!!! wake up men!! (:
went to chin nan's birthday party, saw many of whom i haven seen for ages, am happy to see them again. and chin nan can't stop claiming that i went MIA for so long, and insisted that i meet them for swimming at least once in a month. hahhas! it's just that it's so far! if not i'd have meet ezah almost every week for swim! why don u guys come TPSC??? hahahhahas! how about that?
yingtao drove me home after that. but before the journey home, we stopped by railway mall to have a sumptuous supper! yummy-yum! i was so craving for minced meat mee pok with extra vinegar and extra chilli from bukit batok( the one that me and xia used to always hang out), and then i got my yummy yummy supper today! thanks so muchie piggie!! thank u for the effort to pick me from the bus stop to his place, thank you for having to control not to drink the tasty red wine, thank you for accomodating to leave early, &
thank you for the supper and ride home! u're the best, as always! loves! (:
-if ever i needed something more than anything else, it's still you.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Saturday, April 28, 2007 ' 6:58 AM
work work work work.
but it was lovely. (:
today time passed rather fast at work, dunno why, but it's just fast.
i really love the kids there. i love chatting to them, knowing about their week, and also they start telling me more about this and that of their life. they are random but i like it (:
kah yen is really cute, she is just the ain't sweet bu spicy kinda girl, always mischievious, always up to something, not the sweet and gentle kind of girl, but that strong and rough girl who plays well on the piano! (: her brother, ming xiang, is my saturday entertainer. hahahas! he is just soooo cute i cannot resist to stop giving him sweets just to make him say please and thank you. megan always coming in early and waiting patiently yet feeling bored, boon suan always wrecking havoc in the room till angeline ha to shake her head everytime boon suan finishes her lesson, brian who is shy yet noisy, jaya&sumi always asking for sweets and i feel bad that i run out of them sometimes. (: lovely bunch. if ever there's anyone saying addiction to work, i guess this is it. hahahhas!
tomorrow is canoeing! i hope i can make it to 8km so that we could clock in the journey as a pre requisite for our 3-star course. We've had only one expedtion since we took our 2 star, so i guess we needa buck up a little, and i think it's time for us to renew our membership. this time i would renew for 3yrs, so it's worthwhile as a student price before i graduate! hahhas!
did i mention?!? that i won the bioskin dermabrasion package through perfect 10 98.7. thanks to ezah, and she won it too! (: i'm looking forward to it, it's on this coming monday! i can't wait!!! i'm hoping it works.
i'm missing mahjong!!! omg, royston, jeerin! when when?!?! it's time to have another round of competition to see who keep table leh!!! i'm so sick of not being able to keep table for all two rounds! HAHAHAHHAS! level up leh my dearests! (:
i miss terence yap wen jie! (:
i'm easily agitated, easily provoked, i'm quick-tempered. take it or leave it, thats me!
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Thursday, April 26, 2007 ' 8:49 AM
peeeek-a-boooooooo!
irregular pains, regular pains, irregular regular pains.
that pain is killing me. that cramp is cramping not only my abdomen, but my back. the pain is everywhere!!! the pain is really killing. :(
it's like i have to use a hand to support my back when i walk, like a pregnant woman!!! yes yes, and they says my baby's cries would be:' neh~~~~~~~~~~~~' HAHAHAHAHHAS!
i dunno what to say about these days, my timetable is so not appealing. it's like wednesdays i go to sch for just a two hr tutorial n then go home.. and then friday i have like 4hrs of break time? baaaaaaaaaa~
he called me from taiwan yesterday. but i was rushing for lessons already, n i was at blk 56, it was so crowded i couldn't hear him properly. i feel bad now, that i sorta hung up his call in a rush with not a very nice tone. sorry pal... he's coming back tmr... i'll talk nicer when he call to say he's reached singapore. (:
nitey everyone. it's time to hibernate and heal those irritating pains.
-pondering under that sycamore tree.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Monday, April 23, 2007 ' 8:24 AM
bad weather.
today, the rain didn't really affected me much, but it did made me cancel a date with my sister to ajisen ramen. that was about it. i didn't feel blue, perhaps cos i wasn't alone, so i was ok. and what brightens my day alot alot, is that i met THREE lovely pies that i haven meet for some time!
first i met sisters huiqi and jieying in school, and guess what?? i haven seen them for like, AGES! it was really really great seeing them again, and omg... i'm longing for a dinner or lunch soon! sister zhihua! i miss u sooo muchie! (:
at the flodding school bus stop, i met QI QI!!! tze kee i mean. hees... ooh, that's just so fun to meet her there, at least she always bring smiles! (after blogging this page must go visit her blog to tag.. hahhas!) love ya girl!
today's T&D tutorial was so super super draggy. it took almost 2 hrs, i must say it's the most draggy tutorial after soooo long in np. ROARS! i totally lost concentration, and i got so fidgety, and it was soooo frustrating cos as i lose my concentration span, i get very irritated and i can't wait to leave the room. it was soooo cold, and it was unbearable. arghs! i hope it's gonna be better for other tutorials.
i must say i'm really lucky, to at least have nancy with me through the pains, the thick and thin in school. if not, i really dunno who to turn to... (:
i had a great great great laugh, as always. (: they say i laugh at everything and anything leh! REALLY MEH?? hahahhahas! maybe...
yuhong tempted me with a trip to KL and Cameron highlands! omg! he said like 6 days, with plucking strawberries, climbing tea plantations and touching clouds, having nice food, nice lodging and good transportation, it's only TWO HUNDRED SINGAPORE DOLLARS! if i really can't afford the school HRM/entrepreneur trip to Sichuan in June, i would just go for this! i feel that excitement when he was talking about it! hahhas! especially when he mentioned that we could touch clouds??? hahhas!! joyce dearie! darlings!! this one?? (:
yar, i think i will just be left on the shelves, and then by the age of 28 or so, i'd invest in a condominium, or by 35 i'd just buy a flat with ezah and we stay happily ever after... we're not lesbians! we're just soul mates, companions! HAHAHHAS! but ezah, i really don't want to be an OVW ehhh... and stop snapping at me! HAHAHAHS! (:
-erms, yet another one.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Saturday, April 21, 2007 ' 9:08 AM
rock-a-bye-baby.... on-the-tree-top...
well, i'm just simply tired and lazy for anything... i'm really just listless to do anything else exvept to move my machine through the mandatory stuffs like schooling and working. i'm seriously worse than feeling tired, i'm more than lazy and i'm just basically taking time to slack and rest as much as i can. my weekends has since lose it's colors, no more going out and nothing else except sleeping and watching vcds at home. how i can become a potato couch sooner or later, seriously.
sorry jenny for not being able to turn up for MOS but happy 21st birthday!!! i'm sorry, i'm really tired after work. meet up with u girls soon!!! (:
ah ma fell down, and hit her head. she's forever keeping things from us! she fell and didn't want me and mei to know! how can!!! we got really worried, and it felt like there was a tonnage of stones on our hearts. she's ever so precious, we, wished.. we'd never lose her...
ROTH CHEARN MSGED ME!! omg! i'm so high~ after so long, the bond is just unbreakable! he sent his loves and misses through this cold gadget, but the words felt warm and so real... camboda was where we all understood true love. love is something non-superficial, and it should come right from the bottom of the heart.. this, we get it from the kids, the people from FGAC, from cambodia.. bring me back to cambodia.... i'm longing to see them, again... will there be such a day? i wished, hoped and prayed so.
brandon msged yesterday to say about POTO and another race apart from the food heritage race. but this one however, has to be registered in pairs he mentioned. i think we can all give it a shot? right ezah darling?! oh, ezah and i had this joke that if SL were to be thinking of a blog name like brandon is, his will be easy. SLbusdirectory.blogspot.com. guess what he responsed when i told him that? he said,' don't want la, later those who REALLY want to find the bus directory cannot get the right link pls?' HAHAHAHS. such cool answer, and yet hilarious. oh, and brandon is almost mind set to used i am gay but i am not. blogspot.com. how lame, but well, it just somehow so him. (:
i miss ezah! meet up soon ya?! hahhas
i miss xia! soon soon soon! jia you for tmr darling! loves (:
even though i'm really tired cos of work, and i know i'm slowly losing my life cos of work.. i really like the job alot. the kids just never fail to bring this smile on my face, and they just brighten my day no matter how tired i felt. a heart warming bunch. was telling jan that thurs i have no lessons, and she wants to re-schedule the kids so that thurs would be worth for me to go work. i was very touched by what she said. i dunno why touched, but i felt really appreciated as an employee? even though, as i mentioned before, that we never had employer-employee relationship. it was more casual, like friends? we work together instead of a hierarchy? jan, angeline, stella and me? we were all more like friends than colleagues, less to speak of employers and employees. she's actually always re-scheduling the kids to fit my schedule, how appreciated. but now that the time table is more or less confirmed, i had given her the confirmed times. wed, thurs, fri and sat.
i really don't mind going there almost everyday, because, everyday i get to see different kids coming in.. like it's so routine to see samantha and christabel on weds, max and anabella on thurs, blythe and seanna on fri, and many many many more of cos. fetching shaun in and out of his childcare for his piano lessons, as shaun goes in i'd fetch jun ryo out... i'm just more than happy to just see them smile brightly at u outside the childcare door. and drawing u pictures after their lessons.
i'm just contented.
how i used to dread going home was history. i yearned to go home even as i was just travelling to school. i don't really like hanging out late everyday. once or twice in a week would be fine, but most of the other days i'd be hoping to go home after sch or work. in fact, i think i quit the addiction of hanging out too much. or perhaps i've grown old? hahahhas! i guess it's just that it's peaceful now at home, unlike history. (:
i'm really contented with life as it is now.
wednesdays meetings with xiao gu, friday tentatively meetings with ying ying, occasional visits to ah ma, i'm just blessed with my family, and i love them very much, as who they are.and the cursings and swearings everyday with JEERIN ONG! i find it a pleasure actually. hahahhhas! (:
I LOVE U PEOPLE! (:
tutorials will start next week, and yupps, it's not exactly a packed time table, but it's so scattered i feel like we could just go to sch for two days and rest on the other days. but well, school ain't so kind. hahhas..
coming may is a busy busy month... everyone's birthday just fall in may! in order: chin nan, roth chearn,chin lee, chin ping, rosie, jasmine, ezah, sister jie ying,xia, xian,may, erika. (: how many is that on the list? hahhahas.
yingtao gonna get enlisted on 7th june.
-i don't know what's those complicating and stirring feelings coming up in waves all over again for. i just want to sit under a sycamore tree and hear those birds sing, alone.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
' 9:08 AM
rock-a-bye-baby.... on-the-tree-top...
well, i'm just simply tired and lazy for anything... i'm really just listless to do anything else exvept to move my machine through the mandatory stuffs like schooling and working. i'm seriously worse than feeling tired, i'm more than lazy and i'm just basically taking time to slack and rest as much as i can. my weekends has since lose it's colors, no more going out and nothing else except sleeping and watching vcds at home. how i can become a potato couch sooner or later, seriously.
sorry jenny for not being able to turn up for MOS but happy 21st birthday!!! i'm sorry, i'm really tired after work. meet up with u girls soon!!! (:
ah ma fell down, and hit her head. she's forever keeping things from us! she fell and didn't want me and mei to know! how can!!! we got really worried, and it felt like there was a tonnage of stones on our hearts. she's ever so precious, we, wished.. we'd never lose her...
ROTH CHEARN MSGED ME!! omg! i'm so high~ after so long, the bond is just unbreakable! he sent his loves and misses through this cold gadget, but the words felt warm and so real... camboda was where we all understood true love. love is something non-superficial, and it should come right from the bottom of the heart.. this, we get it from the kids, the people from FGAC, from cambodia.. bring me back to cambodia.... i'm longing to see them, again... will there be such a day? i wished, hoped and prayed so.
brandon msged yesterday to say about POTO and another race apart from the food heritage race. but this one however, has to be registered in pairs he mentioned. i think we can all give it a shot? right ezah darling?! oh, ezah and i had this joke that if SL were to be thinking of a blog name like brandon is, his will be easy. SLbusdirectory.blogspot.com. guess what he responsed when i told him that? he saud,' don't want la, later those who REALLY want to find the bus directory cannot get the right link pls?' HAHAHAHS. such cool answer, and yet hilarious. oh, and brandon is almost mind set to used i am gay but i am not. blogspot.com. how lame, but well, it just somehow so him. (:
i miss ezah! meet up soon ya?! hahhas
even though i'm really tired cos of work, and i know i'm slowly losing my life cos of work.. i really like the job alot. the kids just never fail to bring this smile on my face, and they just brighten my day no matter how tired i felt. a heart warming bunch. was telling jan that thurs i have no lessons, and she wants to re-schedule the kids so that thurs would be worth for me to go work. i was very touched by what she said. i dunno why touched, but i felt really appreciated as an employee? even though, as i mentioned before, that we never had employer-employee relationship. it was more casual, like friends? we work together instead of a hierarchy? jan. angeline, stella and me? we were all more like friends than colleagues, less to speak of employers and employees. she's actually always re-scheduling the kids to fit my schedule, how appreciated. but now that the time table is more or less confirmed, i had given her the confirmed times. wed, thurs, fri and sat. o really don't mind going there almost everyday, because, everyday i get to see different kids coming in.. like it's so routine to see samantha and christabel on weds, max and anabella on thurs, blythe and seanna on fri, and many many many more of cos. fetching shaun in and out of his childcare for his piano lessons, as shaun goes in i'd fetch jun ryo out... i'm just more than happy to just see them smile brightly at u outside the childcare door. and drawing u pictures after their lessons.
i'm just contented.
how i used to dread going home was history. i yearned to go home even as i was just travelling to school. i don't really like hanging out late everyday. once or twice in a week would be fine, but most of the other days i'd be hoping to go home after sch or work. in fact, i think i quit the addiction of hanging out too much. or perhaps i've grown old? hahahhas! i guess it's just that it's peaceful now at home, unlike history. (:
i'm really contented with life as it is now.
wednesdays meetings with xiao gu, friday tentatively meetings with ying ying, occasional visits to ah ma, i'm just blessed with my family, and i love them very much, as who they are.and the cursings and swearings everyday with JEERIN ONG! i find it a pleasure actually. hahahhhas! (:
I LOVE U PEOPLE! (:
tutorials will start next week, and yupps, it's not exactly a packed time table, but it's so scattered i feel like we could just go to sch for two days and rest on the other days. but well, school ain't so kind. hahhas..
coming may is a busy busy month... everyone's birthday just fall in may! in order: chin nan, roth chearn,chin lee, chin ping, rosie, jasmine, ezah, sister jie ying,xia, xian,may, erika. (: how many is that on the list? hahhahas.
yingtao gonna get enlisted on 7th june.
-i don't know what's those complicating and stirring feelings coming up in waves all over again for. i just want to sit under a sycamore tree and hear those birds sing, alone.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 ' 8:42 AM
i went to visit an old uncle( grandpa's sworn brother) today with xiao gu and ah ma. we left with tears as it was really sad when he said we must visit him often with the saddest and heart piercing tone... we all cried cos we really felt that sad atmosphere when we were about to leave. he's old already, and the body system just ain't keeping up with him anymore... i sincerely hope he's gonna be fine... we'll visit him whenever we can. (:
had a really really long chat on the phone with qin last night. it was heart pouring, and overwhelming as we talked about everything and anything since JC till now. we both agreed we didn't regret dropping out from jc, it was a wise choice and we all knew what we were doing back then. we are leading lifes better than before, only now that there are more scheming ppl as we grow.
had a long long long hang out with xia darling the day before yesterday, also met up with brandon, SL and ezah darling to fill up the form for our food heritage tour in may. it's the second tour i'm joining them, and it seems like we've known each other for so so long (as in brandon & sL). they are just seriously crazy people, which never fail to make me laugh my heart and lungs out. apart from the saga tree joke that SL made, there's yet another one. HAHAHS. HE CHOOSES HIS GF USING BUS DIRECTORY!!!
so it's like, the first criteria to being his gf would be:
IS THERE ANY DIRECT BUS FROM YOUR PLACE TO MY PLACE?
if any girl were to fail this then no more talks. HAHAHAHHAHAHAS!
then we kept teasing ezah about how she shoot gary with the:' i'm earning 3 times more than ur NS pay'... and she was so so so guilty that she went to apologise to him, seriously. hahhas... and the thing about karma that's going round and round? hahhahas! i got my karma before brandon met us. the whole entire lemon tea spilled onto me!!! OMG pls! something must always happen in BK toilets. first incident which lixia had a deeper impression....(which i wont want to mention here anymore), then this was the other one. (:
i must we all had a great laugh altogether... me, xia, wil-son, ezah, brandon, SL... it was 'initial' thought as a weird combi, but when jokers meet... well, it's like a whole bunch of crazy ppl laughing loud along the streets.
brandon is gonna figure the best deal for POTO and off we would go, ezah dont want cos she scared she zzz. hahahhas!! (:
after work at pianoforte which ends at 7plus, i met JOYCE DEARIE!! after a decade. we had a really hearty chat, we are so similar, name similar, situations similar, everything is just too similar. probably that explains why we click right at the start with a snap. there was just connection... and there still is. i'll always be here for you dearie! loves!!! (:
how guys try to get girls so hard, and then pamper them like a princess, giving hopes and live, but ultimately dashes all hopes and leaving her to suffocate and die.... typical? maybe not for everyone, but generally, it is always the case. at least that's what we concluded for the evening's chat. (:
perhaps i'm just being too skeptical towards this, but i can't help but have doubts. everyone is supportive of me giving it a shot, and of cos, i know it very well that it's been so long, probably too long for me to have doubts anymore.
i gotta slowly walk out of this fear, joyce dearie said. (:
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Sunday, April 15, 2007 ' 10:19 AM
the new song in my blog... it's nice, and it captivated my heart... (:
The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part the hold
you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now
but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and ya know I'd never let you go
hum……
The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
hey hum……
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
' 4:50 AM
tmr starts school. i'm sohappy, yet... not so happy. okie.. i know i'm always contradicting myself.. arghs!! i also dunno why... but nonetheless, school is starting and it is YEAR 3 already! it will end so super fast (at least i hope it will) then bye bye to poly years. seriously, i'm not exactly looking forward to school anymore, when we all knew what ain't gonna be right... well, even angeline had the same reaction as me and camen when she heard about it.. well well, there goes to say that we are really.... sway... but i guess there's no turning back now, cos it's somehow set already... sigh~
it was really rotting at home today, totally rotting, and doing nothing but watching vcds and sleeping my whole afternoon away... lols.. i know i'm a slacker... i am, indeed.
i really like my pianoforte job.. cos the kids are so loving, and jan is one of the most wonderful boss around (not that it was like a employee-employer relationship to start off with), she's just a nice and soft spoken lady who's always so nice... (: and of cos angeline tops up the fun (:
suddenly, i'm missing china. :( soo much. at this time, we should be shopping at the streets, qi qi, zhiwen and i would be like laughing our lungs out, and baoyi would be shaking her head along the way... guan hong would be like u all so noisy u noe.. hahhas... we would be buying crepes to eat.. and blah blah blah....~ (:
i admit that i'm really touched. i am. but i don't know what it might bring but i think this time, i'm really willing to give it a try... just like what lixia always tell me: u never know... and ezah said: he could be the one... yar darling? i do hope so (:
I MISS MY DARLINGS!!!!! (:
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Saturday, April 14, 2007 ' 9:23 AM
i was just thinking to myself, he couldn't be so free to sms anyone and everyone from taiwan to singapore right? he wouldn't be so bothered to sms anyone and everyone whenever he's free right? i was also thinking he can't be just joking when he seems so serious about this whole issue right?
i don't know.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Thursday, April 12, 2007 ' 6:33 PM
good-the-morning everyone!
i had one of the best laughs last nite. it was like HAHAHAHAHA & WAHAHAHAHAHA & MUAHAHAHHA for the whole entire evening. there was just so much to talk about and it was really amazing how we can always talk about the same things and laugh it over and over again, repeating all the childhood days and reminicising the joys we shared. eight years and counting, thinking back on the incident where i sprained my ankle during the trek from twss to macritchie, it was 6 years ago. and thinking back on the big walk incident where we kept laughing and laughing over and over again, it was 2 years ago.
how time flies!
it was supposed to be meeting for volunteering services at DSA, it was supposed that PROJECT CONNECTION people going down to volunteer but it's kinda difficult to get the team reform anyways. so i asked ezah and xia for help. but in the end we din go, cos mr razak said it wasn't convenient last nite, so it's gonna be next week then.
it was a blessing in disguise, cos we were actually quite disappointed that it was cancelled, but we had a great dinner, great chill out and it was total fun-ness. sometimes, i wonder what would happen if i didn't have this bunch of sweetie darlings in my life, but it's all wonders that i have them in my life. (: love you gals, darlings!!!
ezah said we can stab each other hard with knives, from the front(of cos), and not get angry, and that's wad we call frens. friends are like us, who can laugh and mock at each others' weaknesses and not bear grudges.
three cheers to our eight years and counting on! (: hip hip hurray!!!
there are frens that i hardly see nowadays and i miss them so much. yvette & michi!! and joyce dearie!! and SISTERS zhihua, huiqi and jieying!! shall meet u gals soon cos i'm missing u all so muchie!
junyong sent this msg to me this morning and that was why i felt so inspired to type sucha long post on, 'Friendship'.
'When leaves drop, it doesn't mean that it was the tree that abandoned them. It also doesn't mean that when the tree love their leaves so much, and the leaves wouldn't drop. Just like you & me, when we haven't been meeting up often, it's not that i've forgotten about you, it's just that i keep u in my heart.'
hahahahhas! so poetry rite?! (:
i'm feeling very sick. sinus attacked real hard this morning, i had diarrohea since last night, and i'm feeling weak on my back and knees. i feel like taking a half day off, cos i'm really feeling soooo tired. anyway, there's no one in the office, yet again. i dunno what to do, cos all i needa do is done. last day today, and there's nothing much to do except to surf the net and blog. sigh~
-sometimes, it all boils down to, me.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 ' 7:03 PM
okie, these two days are really not my days... it's total SWAYNESS~ yesterday i wore the wrong pair of shoes, i had a tons of blisters on my feet and i had difficulty walking properly cos of the high arc of my feet, and the shoes give minimal support for me. omg, i had to drag my feet home like nobody's business, pain until lor! arghs!!
then reach home checked mel and gotta know a shocking news.... almost choked my heart out and freaked the hell out of me! (tracy and camen would totally understand why), ying ying can come ask me for details y i so the sway! we = sway de lor! wo men zhen de shi sway de lor!! roars!! if i cannot appeal, i'll really be so not motivated to go to school. dammit.
this morning woke up late, want to take a cab at the taxi stand but none came. tried calling for a cab and they hold me on the line for sooo long! i waited soo long, like half an hour? and late for work for an hour. sway!
on a lighter note, i went shopping and walk walk with nanc last nite, and she got 2 tops and i got a dress. happy happy. oh, by the way, i saw daniel at far east!! hahahas! so coincident!! we bumped twice at orchard last nite. hahas.. anyway, thanks pal again, for getting the song for me. ha!
tmr is the 'last' day of work at pico. dunno to be happy or not to be. for many reasons. hahas (: so many people asking me why i take so many jobs. well, when money is concerned.... my darlings will understand.
i want a better reason for a better day....
-don't know.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 ' 10:59 PM
cock-adoodle-dooooooo
okie, i'm so super bored. i'm supposed to do some HTML things, and guess what? how the hell would i be familiar with html stuffs??? hahahs... but i'm really trying my very best to do it... i just need MORE time than others to digest...
ezah said ok to take first aid course with me! yays!! anymore ppl??? it will be in june, tues and thurs evenings.... yayys!! (:
continue to be a cock-adoodle-doo in HTML... there i go.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
' 7:44 PM
peek-a-booooooooo!!!!
had a really crazy but fun conversation with Ezah darling last nite. it's been long since i felt so happy and so cheered up. hahahhas! we were talking about how youtube is really addictive, and indeed. i showed her the videos that i was watching over youtube, my exexexex husbands, exex husbands and current husband (of cos, that's pure crap which we always continue on and on)... my new addiction is stanley huang, and then i showed her, and she said he is cool but look china even though he's more like an ABC... we had a great laugh about it, and then i had this sudden urge to 'rekindle' my older love, aaron kwok... showed her this MV "Endless love to you", or in chinese, "dui ni ai bu wan".. and she laughed, and i laughed and we laughed... turned crazy over time.
she said she realised that the kind of guys that i like all got the same features: looks smart, has thick eyebrows and big eyes... BINGO!!! i never mentioned this before but she realised!!! hahahahas!! considering i told her i liked zhang yao dong, aaron kwok, stanley, Lee hom, hmmm... and some others not in the showbiz... they all have the smart look. then we concluded that she likes guys with small small eyes, like the stars in korea always catches her eye, but u prefer HK & Taiwan guys cos they just have the charisma... and that we previously also concluded that xia darling likes guys with the weak weak look, or very introvert kinds.
hahhas. thats a level up on our understanding of one another...
oh anyway, my mp3 now has retro songs that are sooooo nice!! songs by leslie cheung, AARON KWOK, andy lau, jacky cheung, LA boys & beyond. omg, soooo nice.. thanks daniel for scouting rather hard and making his fren rip the song of the disc and send it to me... thanks so much, cos that song is almost extinct already. (:
yupps, am supposed to work now, but cos i have a little spare time to blog, and so here i am skiving... hahhas... yippee!! i think i'm just high on adrenaline and i don't know why... hahahahhas! i'm a happy kid.
-didn't anyone tell you that it somehow worked? okie, it worked.-
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Monday, April 09, 2007 ' 9:06 AM
yippee~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it's been some time since i last blogged. okie, let's see what's there to update about...
the long weekends were very much about mahjong with royston and ah mei till the wee hours, plus slacking and rotting. it's really nothing much but i enjoyed it. (:
there are so much so much i've heard, but there's really nothing much i could help but to keep it safe with me. i really would like to help, in one way or another, but i really have either no rights, or i'm just a bystander, listener.
went to chalet at aloha changi a while ago with ibsm peeps. it's great to see them again!!! bbq was fun and food was nice... people gathering was great, especially nice to see zi qi and zhi wen again!! not forgetting bao yi, jas, denise, dickson, stephie... and many many others of cos. (: and as usual, zhiwen, zi qi and i wrecked havoc and laughed like nobody's business.. hahahas! i like! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENSON!!! (:
teach me what to say, teach me what to react, teach me the right kind of response.
teach me what is love. i've forgotten how things should be, how i should be, and what love really contains..... do you choose someone whom u turn to when u're sad, or someone u turn to when u're happy?
i wan to take up first aid course at Singapore Red Cross Association in May/June. Anyone? (:
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007 ' 7:25 PM
yabaa.... dabaaa.... dooooooooooooooo~
sorry about the previous post, i added vengence into it and it sounds so fierce... so not like me right? muahahas! of cos! i'm quick tempered but still as lovable! oh man, drop it, JOYCE! (:
know why i sounds so freaking crazy this morning? cos i woke up rather late in the morning, missing the first alarm, rushed to work like siao...
then gotta settle some stuffs, that kinda stressed a couple of people (shan't mention it anymore), now that the office is empty cos lynn and CH went for meeting, i'm a little bit more relaxed...
her i am, blogging!!! (:
last nite went home straight after work, relaxed and slept early... sleeping is the best therapy for any pains and sickness. have been down with this long-life flu ever since i came back from china. the neck down the spine seems to be painful everyday. perhaps i sit for too long in the office? arghs. sleeping eases these problems.
i'm currently addicted to this song, go find and listen to it!!
~ Way back into Love~
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
it's the original sound track from the movie, Music & Lyrics. i like this song, for i think it speaks my mind, at this very moment. (:
i gottta get back to work. slacker says bye!! (:
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
' 2:07 AM
i can't help but feel so cheated now. not a major thing, but here's to everyone, NEVER trust in horoscopes or zodiac signs ever again. for those who are always into it, now here's the fantastic news! there's an additional sign that all astrologers choose to ignore cos Ancient astrologers believed that the number 13 is a bad omen, and thus scraped the original zodiac signs from 13 to the modern one now, 12 signs.
most sagittarius people are not sagittarius but OPHIUCHUS. and this is the sign that is forgotten, and ignored for decades and decades. today, i realised i'm supposed to be an phiuchus instead of a sagittarius? i felt so cheated cos i think it's no longer as 'accurate' as everyone says? how ppl look at their daily predictions for their signs and all, all are wrong in a way? cos the dates of the modern signs n the ancient ones are totally different also? like actually u may be a taurus but in actual fact u're an aries. get wad i'm trying to say ppl? this is so ridiculous, for god's sake. like how ppl check out their compatibility with other signs?
like for sagittarius it used to be Leo, aquarius, libra and aries.
but for those sagittarius who are supposed to be ophiuchus, it's actually pisces, capricorn, ophiuchus and cancer.
so it all rounds up to be so inaccurate!
likewise for everyone whose horoscopes u believe in now, may just not be ur actual horoscopes.
stop believing in it!
ROARS!
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
Sunday, April 01, 2007 ' 6:32 PM
yippee ya ya yippee yippeee ya~~~~~~~~~~~~
yesterday we went to support Brandon at the Repertoire. guess what??? he won! his team won big time! they got the winner for category B which is for tertiary institutes. competitors were NP, RP and NYP. SP won, and brandon also won the best of the best business and marketing personnel! omg, he's got like two gold trohpies yesterday... it felt really good when u see the person u're supporting won! we were cheering so loud and so enthusiastically for him, and that SL say i'm a traitor cos i'm supposed to cheer for NP by right. however, i normally prefer to go by LEFT! hahhas! GO BRANDON GO!!!
ezah and i were so hyper and we hugged each other when brandon got the prize, we were both REALLY happy for him. this time, he wouldn't tell us, 'ehh.... i really wan to win the prize leh...'
he made it big this time, and we are all proud of him! yippee!!!
oh, we're planning to go to botanical gardens to have picnic together.. the four of us (ezah, me, SL & Brandon) to let SL find his saga tree that we didn't get to see while we were in the race last year. he haven gotten over it,and so we are planning to go to botanical gardens to have a picnic under the saga tree! we're thrilled. hahahahas!
these two guys are the most blur and fun people i've met through Ezah. omg! one of them is so blur yet funny and fun, and the other one is just so hyper and active over everything! hahahas.
we had a great day altogether yesterday. and SL, ezah n me went to al-azhar for prata, then SL went to west mall to meet his friend while me and Ezah went to ten mile junction to have dim sum. Her dad and fazelah joined us in a while, then we went shopping in sheng siong. cos we ate so much for dinner, we decided to walk. Ezah walked home while i walk to the bangkit bus stop. hahas. i reached home at about 10.30pm. (: it was great.
i'm now working, but i have to take some time off work for a while to log before i forget about the details. (:
this week will be a rather short week as there will be good friday coming up. it will be monday to thursday only, then one more week of work then to sch. actually i think i'm starting to miss sch. how ironical.
if i know the way out through the maze, i wouldn't be sitting alone in the maze. would it be better if you would be able to come into the maze, and find me to lead me to the way out of the maze?
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
