please allow me to be high NOW! i came across this page in YMCA web, please visit and let me know if anyone would be interested to form groups with to go for these overseas community project. there are places like cambodia (phnom penh and siem reap), Shanghai and Ningxia (Mongolia). check it out man!!! i think it's really meaningful. oh btw, they also have local volunteering services that everyone can join to help out. (:

http://www.ymca.org.sg/Web/main.aspx?ID=838a3b4a-20fd-470b-ad7a-91af22cf8af0

okie, so as i was saying, TRANSFORMERS is good, nelson agrees to it too. we're superly highly reccommending it to royston. HAHHAS. and we agreed that we had real laughters in the theatre, where his friends had to ask him to relax, but i told him in my case it was ok, cos the whole theatre was filled with hilarious laughters and loud claps from time to time. oh btw, nelson is my cousin. we watched at different times, but we had total same sentiments for the movie. (:

tmr is the milk run!! yippe. oh, and the mizuno wave run 2007 is in july, man, i kept thinking it is in august. okie, now, it is milk run tmr, mizuno run in aug and shape run in september! lao da was talking abt some sheares bridge run. i think i will give that a miss, cos i don have much confidence for 10KM!!!! hahahhas!
i'm finally meeting ezah, till tmr.

i missed out mahjong session with the gang today, next week then! guess i gotta abstain from mahjong for a while so i don't get labelled the 'gambling ghost'! hahahahs! thanks to lee chin nan for that label! lols. cya people, next week perhaps? (:

adios.

TRANSFORMERS was good!!!! FANTASTIC! i like the effects, the sound impacts, and the action packs! omg! highly recommended everyone! (:

late night movie, great companions, what's more to ask for on a friday night?
gotta catch some sleep NOW! working tomorrow!! (:

sentosa was great! wadings and splashings! video done, fun deal (: toes, u rock~

today was productive. i met xiao gu for lunch, i brought ah ma out, with jeerin.. to imm. we walked around, shopped around, and then i left for tuition-ing wayne, then i went to amk hub to meet THE SISTAS!!! ichiban for dinner, and chill outs! catching up was great and... yupps... as usual, laughter and joys filled the day. photos to be up laterr.
got lawris jie to help me get some body shop products since she has great discounts for them, kim sms-ed totally enthusiastically, i do hope it turns out well (:

milk run is sunday!!! get ready ezah and jeerin! conquer that 4km, and for goodness sake, i just haven been running at all, except for yoga lessons n climbing stairs, there's really zero trainings. LOLS! and OMG! i think i haven talk to someone in msn for nearly a week! rite ezah?!! sunday sunday, payments payments and payments! (:

tmr is TRANSFORMERS with the gang (minus YT), maybe i should sms him to check out if the NS is torturing? hahhahas! that's totally nosense! of cos it's torturing, and i shall not add on salt to his wounds! lols. just wanted to say i think i miss his LOUD laughters. (:

there's really something i should mention. ezah would be asking me to give that WHATEVER attitude to this issue and yingtao would be like 'aiyar... hack lor!' if he's around to hear this rant, but it's so freaking getting on my nerves! THAT, really was unneccessary! now, it all boils down to that TOTAL NON-APPRECIATING ATTITUDE all over again. TOTALITARIAN BITCH. how a someone really has the ability to piss people off at the fingertips. outta my life, FOR GOOD, FOR LONG, best to be FOREVER. it just goes far to prove how a person he/she is. thank you.

niteys!! tmr is gonna be a long long day at work without a companion.

MAN, I MISS YVETTE! LIKE, SOOOO MUCHIE. outta sudden. (:

okiee, it was a productive day with most part of the projects done, with the video done filming and with loads of craps and laughter integrated into it. i would say it was rather fun doing the filming cos i had so many explosion of laughters during the process, like.. i just couldn't look at erika and shout or flare up. HAHAHHAS! it was hilarious when i had to NG so many times cos i was laughing and bursting out. now i know how hard it is to be acting. many a times i just try to keep those laughs in my stomach then at one certain point of time, i would just explode without any control. hahhahas! hilarious eh? will try putting up the video here when jasmine finish with it. (:
there's still some more filming to be done tmr, this time.. at sentosa. yupps, proj + fun. how nice.

hmmm, am supposed to meet yan and xian.. but well.. they tot i was in school so they decided to meet at bpp. but i was at erika's house upper thomson by the way), it's just so outta the way, and so i didn't join them. i met kim for dinner instead. thanks for the dinner girl! we're in the midst of holiday planning. hees, i hope it would work out!

okie now, thanks to xian... who gave me a surprise last nite! she managed to find the song and downloaded for me. thank u so much! it's just, so nice.

nites.

i've been looking for this song, cos this song is like my favourite for as long as it had existed. guess what? the never give up mentality paid off. it's been YEARS since i find this song... i think there are people around me who knows how muchi love this song! omg. i found it, with lyrics but i can't download it! roars!!!!

我的冷漠或许让你黯然神伤
对你沉默或许让你慌乱而不安
其实我的内心是你看不见的慌
而你又悄悄把爱植进我心房
心中残留太多的伤
模糊了爱的方向
你能否让我勇敢
让我再相信
再相信 爱和情 不畏曾经伤心
对爱一生怀疑
让我再相信
再相信 爱和情
让我可以为你再点亮 我的心

omg, meaningful and nice. i really want to share with everyone and relly want it so bad, but all i can do, is to listen from the web.. so people, here:
http://music.tvvvv.com/huarennvyin/Song/096316.html

peek-a-boo!!!
today was intensive project day, and the happy thing was we made a great deal out of the time we had. we completed most of the discussions, and we are on track, and i think it takes momentum to keep me going, and once it kicks off well, then it will normally runs smoothly for me. and yups, it was great we did ALOT for our projects today! and we're meeting for project again, tmr.. to film the video, and then we are also meeting wed to do videos, and the video is to be taken at sentosa!
or rather, it was more like going sentosa to play, and take the video there since we've planned to be there. the toes, rocks! (:

supposed to meet yan and xian for some donuts time tmr, i hope i can make it, cos... i have loads of project to complete, and this is the last week of holidays. how time flies.

OH! DID I MENTION!? the red cross sent a confirmation email to me and ezah already! we're going for the august lesson. here we come! and then, there's just so much for us to look forward to. sunday is milk run, aug is mizuno wave run, and september is shape run! (:

yogalates almost killed me yesterday! hahhas! no la, not dead yet of cos! it's just, low impact, high intensity. i'm feeling it works every single muscle in me. i like it (:
met ezah to hang out and chill, initially wanted to go pay for the first aid course and mizuno wave run, but we decided to do them this week instead. yayys!

gotta rush proj, sayonara!

其实我非常爱你不想失去你,难道我没有权利说我不愿意

in exactly one hour's time:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGTAO!!! (:

hmm, we won't get to celebrate for him this year, he's in camp... the redang trip seemed like yesterday, when we celebrated his birthday last year. i vividly remember xiong lao da falling asleep while playing mahjong, waiting for 12am to strike, and yingtao totally surprised for the fact he was too tired to even remember it was his birthday. exactly one year ago, lao da was sound asleep in the midst of a mahjong game. time flies.
army keeps yingtao away from us, and our activities. hope 2 years would fly as fast. (: hope u're enjoying ur birthday BASH in there! (:

hmm, there's like nothing much inspiring in life for the time being. but i'd find something to satisfy that adventure thirst soon. ezah be my kaki. (:
mahjong at chin nan's house on monday evening was good. catching up with swensens' people, meeting with xian and yan was good as well. starbucks + loads of crap from me and chin nan, i can't imagine how irritated all others in the house was, but i know lao da, xian, and yan won't mind ok already. haahahhas.
next friday we'd be watching Transformers together. lao da booked tickets already, but i'm not quite sure who's gonna be there. hahhas.

yoga yoga yoga...

OH! jeerin and i made it. we climbed the stairs, 15 storeys up and down... it feels good to be exercising actually. hahahs. and what's more reasonable for the trainings are milk run and mizuno wave run. joyce has to make it for that! way to go!!! (:

okie, i gotta get down to my projects, NOW!

DON'T ever, EVER! MENTION FAMILY IN FRONT OF ME.
I HAVE NONE.
THANKS.

define the word FAMILY first before talking to me about that.
quoted from dictionary.com, family says,
1.parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.

now, see the word parents? it is plural, my case: it is SUPPOSED TO BE singular(that's presumably better than none) but anyway, i've come to realise maybe i don't even have singular form. perhaps, i have none. it's so stark on me that she has no eyes for me. so, for the first part of that definition there, it shows that i don't have a family.

more proof? ohh... definitely. CONSIDERED AS A GROUP. there's a group in this house, but i'm definitely NOT CONSIDERED as part of the group.
whether dwelling together or not: yes we are dwelling together, but i've already fallen out of the category from the initial parts of the definition.

so people, if i ever have a family, that is, IF I EVER HAD ONE, it was IN THE PAST. the memories are so vague i cannot remember anymore. who should care at all? all i remember now is that i used to have someone so firm to be always there for me. USED TO, not anymore. tell me, who should i turn to when i needed to share something, joyous or sad, serious or random. who has eyes for me like he does? no one. not anymore.

i dunno why am i giving it such a big damn. maybe i should just leave no mind and heart to this at all. i have no eyes for anyone who have no eyes for me!
she WILL REGRET IT. she will!

don't get affected by my post, cos i'm the only affected party in this case. people might feel that i'm some jealous elder sister, but no one ever understands the being-bypassed-feeling. thank you.

on a lighter note, the tummy is slightly better already. but still, it's like a machine is so old to move and whenever there's workload, it croaks. thanks zixian for the medicine, i think it helps, but still, the stomach is churning. i think it will be ok soon. (: thanks everyone for the concern.
i think i need some retail therapy, some healings, some... i don't know. maybe ice cream can help freeze and numb the feelings for a while.

-should i, shouldn't i? tell me.

omg! i came across this and i think i'm super high now!
look!!!

The Singapore Youth Chinese Orchestra conducts its annual audition in end November to early December to recruit new talents into the orchestra. Applicants (aged 13 years old to 25 years old in the following year) with Chinese orchestral background are strongly encouraged to apply! Keep a lookout for audition application details in September!

hahahahs! i've been waiting for this, and here it goes! (:
yippee!!! why am i so happy??

i'm going for the audition! (:

我的好别人应该永远都看不到。
对别人好， 但永远得不到认同。
在别人眼里， 我应该永远都是可有可无的吧。
我会慢慢学会更加独立（就像大家都一口认同的，我是独立的），反正在每个人的眼里，我就是个不需要关心，不需要关怀的人就对了。
你们可以渐渐把我忘记，放弃。也可以永远看不见我的重要，我不会怪谁。
我也会学着了解我的存在只是废墟。

most people would say a person's main moral supprt comes from the family, sometimes, i can't help but feel that my family only drains me, totally. maybe that's how people learn and grow, maybe if i can take it and i can survive thru, that's when i glow. maybe...
but well, all i think of is them, care for is them, but they seems to fail their eyesight just on me. mayb when i start to ponder if i should just go overseas to venture, i don't have to think about any of them. anyway, i'm supposed to be INDEPENDENT, like what they want me to be, and sad to say to them, I AM! MAYBE I REALLY DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF EMOTIONAL SUPPORT, I'M BETTER OFF myself, alone.
most frens are the ones standing by me, when i needed the most emotional help. or rather, most of my emo came from the root of the family. what are frens for is what my frens say. what are family for is what i wan to ask and know.
well, anyway, like i always say, those who say won't do n those who don't say will. i may keep complaining, and yakking about all the pains, but i haven been doing what i've been saying, that is to ignore them, have i? 往往放不下就是最痛苦的。

please pardon me, i just needed to vent it somewhere, and i felt this is the only space left for me to relieve. thank you.

today at work, there was this sudden rush of thoughts:



and i actually thought i won't miss him, or rather, and i thought i won't miss him this much.
oh help.

few (MANY) things to look forward to, even though i'm kinda suffering cos of this bad stomach.
hahahaha.
yippee~ya~ya~yippe yippe yaaa~~~~~~~~

that few things:
Intro to sign language course in July (pending, waiting for the registration form to be sent)
First Aid course in August (Sent and confirmed, payment to be made soon)
Children's Society Voluntary work starting July 1st on a weekly basis (ezah, u wanna join me for this? i've just confirmed my voluntary status with them today!)
Sydney Music School Alumni Performance in August with the kids in piano school
Holidays starts at end august, start of september.
LANGKAWI?! (:

Ain't those worth looking forward to? goodness BIG YES!

Striving towards that HUMANITARIAN goal together, we go girls! love ya ezah!

was so touched that this naughty angel lovely friend of mine actually went online to search remedies for diarrohea and gave it to me. HAHA! **touched**
thanks zixian too! her mom has got this remedy for diarrohea, the last time i had consistent diarrohea, i took it and i recovered. hope this time it would work as well. maybe should meet xian to get it tmr. thanks girls. (:

thanks pals for the concern, i'm starting to eat already, but how much the body sustain is another story. HAHA.

anyone knows how to cure diarrohea?

i'm back from genting.

stomach flu is horrible. countless times of vomiting, countless times to the toilet thru the night. injection, medicines, mc. :(
no food intake, only liquid, for now.
i think i'm dying.

and it's contagious.

celebrating nizam's birthday, and yingtao's enlistment. pictures say a 1000 words:

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

Bachelor of social work (not an easy path but it will work out, 6/6 to go!)
Japan
Melbourne
Turkey
New Zealand
there's nothing i want more than world peace.

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