it's so ridiculous how some people take u as a refugee camp and then HALLUCINATE that u are in love with them. what a shit. please wake up man! i'm freaking taken aback by whatever u are thinking, whatever u said and whatever u might just be hallucinating. it's probably good u patron my blog pretty often, and please red this. specially dedicated to u noy because u are any important person in my life, but PLEASE JUST TAKE NOTE AND BE NOTED THAT, I AM IN THE LEAST INTERESTED IN YOU, AND PLEASE STOP THINKING THAT PEOPLE BEING NICE TO YOU HAS TO LIKE YOU.
i am GENERALLY NICE TO EVERYONE, and i'm sure anyone can verify that.
and by being courteous to reply ur msges and pick up ur phone calls only signal that YOU ARE JUST A FRIEND. for goodness sake u pissed me off by that sms u sent and in case u didn't know, if i like a guy, i'd probably NEVER REJECT ANY OF HIS DATES. and thank goodness i'm able to speak up formyself now that i've NEVER RECIPROCATED TO ANY OF YOUR DATES.
dammit.

sorry people, i'm so super angry because this particular person whom i shall not name him sent me this sms. please be my audience and be my judge. how would anyone feel receiving sucha ridiculous thing.

'haha. we can be very gd fren. i still need alot of time b4 i go for a second love. the 1st love hurt me too deep. i'm sorry. take care :)'

oh what the F?!!?!?! i can never imagine anyone sending me out of the blues! and he was the one who started sms-ing me cos he was out of love. and he WAS a friend and i thought no harm just giving him some words of encouragement.. bla bla.. and then in days to come he kept sms-ing me NON STOP and then so i thought i would reduce the times i reply. and then he kept asking me out and of cos i wouldn't just go out with any tom dick and harry. i'm not trying to be mean but i'm saying the truth. i go out with just that few guy friends i always hang out with, and other than that i just wouldn't. AND THEN HE STARTED TO MSG ME LIKE THREE MEALS A DAY, bla bla bla.. and then he HALLUCINATES! dammit. and u all know what's the most irritating thing!? after he sent that sms, he KEPT SMS-ING NON STOP WITH RUBBISH LIKE:
' had dinner?', ' sorry i'm a very direct person.', 'my dinner was ok. how was urs?', 'what plans u have for tmr?'
ohh.. for goodness sake, just F off!

i'm angry because it sounds like i'm DESPERATE! roars.

anyway, ona happier note, i want to thank xiong lao da alot. for being a sweet friend. i sms-ed him this morning to tell him that i'm quite cash tight and might have problem buying the lee family's birthday presents... surprisingly, he transferred me money and sms-ed me that he transferred 50 for my personal use just in case i needed it, and can return him when i get my pay on the 7th. that's what friends are for (: i'm just grateful for having these friends in my life. like i always said, the guys are jewels of my life that i canot live without and the girls, u know u all are my darlings. needless to say. hee..

anyway, i'm truly looking forward to may cos it's the lee family's birthdays, and it's our annual athering event once again. the steamboat! and yupp, i shall get to see people i haven met since months. loves.

i like my job, i like my colleagues, i like everything.
sometimes it gets very strenous and tiring.. it's taxing but i'm holding on... for several reasons that keeps running through my mind.
first and foremost, for the hot passion that runs in every drop of my blood.
second of all, for the dreams i live for.
for the philosophy i hold strongly to.
and for another very simple reason, i'm waiting for someone to come back and serve her bond with me (:
this urge to hold on strong is at top notch. though tough and hard... i will persevere every part of it. what more? i have really really nice colleagues, people whom think alike, people whom share the same passion, same dreams, same thoughts. what more can i ask for?
for they are colleagues whom u can really depend on, they will not turn their backs on u, and there's just seriously no reason for any office politics, the job isnt competitive. that's what i like about it all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY DARLING!!!

had a fantastic, fabulous steamboat gathering at jenny's place (:
wonderful.
irreplacable by words, just simply fabulous.
the nostalgia of, 'those were the days...' the saddening of, 'that's the end of our lovely day...' and the hope of, 'more to come...'
yes, in hope for more to come ya people? (:
i hope everyone enjoyed themselves, like i did.
it was good to see people whom i've missed whole loads, and finally meeting up and catching up. it was a totally happy day.
pictures to be up soon!

YEO AH KEE! I MISS U LA CAN?! LUNCH/DINNER WITH ME SOON YOU!
and then i miss ezah like crazyyyyyyy.

2nd day at work, it was good.
and yes, just the 2nd day i joined them for a wonderful function at meritus mandarin, Social Worker's Day 08. it was an eye opener, as all the social service sector workers come together on a special occasion, and the commemoration of President Nathan's contribution as a social worker was astonishing (:

im starting to get a hang of work, i handled a new case by myself today... i was scared, nervous but i act calm in front of my clients. i think i'm slowly adapting and blending into it. and thankfully i've got nice and really helpful colleagues.
i'm starting to love my job (:

some photos to update (:

new phase of life starts tomorrow.

i have ugly, disfigured, scarred legs now that i can NEVER wear shorts or skirts ever again :(

booooohoooo~
i need clothes for work :(
sam was being random and he called just to say he thinks i'm being kidnapped by aliens.
i think so.
what i'm having now seems alienic and weird.
and well, i'm captured at home, doing nothing. it keeps me away from my friends, and i'm feeling lonely cos of this.
indeed, i feel kidnapped.

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY LIKIM! (:

on a rainy afternoon like today, yes i am still rotting at home, waiting for my stupid leg to heal. much to my surprise, i'm very very much ok compared to previous weeks (: i will be fine soon.

i don't know where my feelings all came rushing from, it's gushing out, and i'm going to blog them all...
remember probably 10 years ago when i was a12 year old, i left the primary school, thinking i would miss most of my primary school mates, crying and weeping because everyone were going separate ways. and then some kept in contact for a good 10years, but most were even farther than before.. some went overseas, some are so near, yet so far. and some, i probably wouldnt even recognise them now if we were to pass by each other on the streets.

moving the clock slightly 6years ago when we all started seconday school, it was the best times in my life. i met the best people in my life. i had them all kept well, and treasured well.. for they are the best things, best people that can ever happen in my life. i cannot help but think that i will never get the kind of innocent happiness ever again, and i'm quite sure of that. although those were all memories, i'm really glad i had them all kept even till now. the best thing in life now is that they are not just part of my memories, butthey are part of my everyday life.
my friends, u all know who u are, there's no need to specify because u all would know who i'm referring to. yes all u darlings who never fail to be there for me (:

and then there were new relationships, failed relationships. sealed and kept. and then there is no relationship now. which i'm happy enough because i don't see myself in one now or in near times.

and soon i meet more people from jc from poly... and then there were most acquaintances but a few heartfelt ones. and those that we went through thick and thin in Cambodia, those memories hold the friendship really strong. those things we all did together, stupid and funny, high and low... we love them all, we see true friendships then.

and i met a few heart to heart friends from swensens. those that i need not say much about cos they are beyond words. they are just so part of me.

and now it's time to step into the real society for me. i have no idea what to expect, what to be. but i am trying to be an idealistc girl, someone fresh, someone new and ready to purge. it's a first job after graduating, it's my dream job, it's my passion. i want to do it well, and we shall all see when i start. give me luck, give me blessings, give me support. (:

and then i start to picture myself in another few years time... i feel relieved that i see images of familiar faces, because i hope it turns out that way. i dunno if everyone feels the same, but there are some people in my life, that i never want to miss out. that i never want them out of my life...
thinking back of those days we all had small misunderstandings of each other, thinking back those bad times where everything took a change in our friendships, now i want them all rewind. now i know it's not possible to rewind, but i want to play now, and see myself and see them in my life again, and forward it one day, seeing that they are still very well kept and loved in my life.

i must have been thinking too much. emotional girl? no!!!
i'm soooooooooo trapped at home everyday, and i haven seen anyone, any friends for the past i dunno how long. and of cos, i'm really missing alot alot of people.

i could so just imagine myself and thinking back of good old times:
with ezah drinking bubble tea and watching movies at her place
with lixia talking endlessly at some void decks or walking aimlessly through the night just to have heart to heart chats
with yan, xian, jenny.. sitting around at some starbucks drinking caramel macchiato and shaking leg, loving our life
with yingtao eating buffets, shouting out loud at each other, laughing at anything everything
with laoda talking so much about life and philosophy, healthy diets and jogs
with the lee family having steamboat, playing mahjong.. bullying jin lee, and being bullied by jin nan
with the sisters rotting around at cafes, zh's house doing nothing but updating juicy parts of our lives
with my ball shopping, eating, talking, laughing. everything.

my goodness. the list goes on. trust me. i miss, everyone, everything.

apologies to everyone who reads my blog, i made everyone worried.
i'm feeling better, emotionally.
not as exasperated and not as down, but my condition is half ok half not.
but i will be fine soon. (:
because.... being happy speeds up recovery i supposed? haha..
i will be much better soon, i know, and thanks to everyone for the support, and everything.

hmm, there's especially thanks to my family who are always always there to assure a paranoid and pessismitc girl who thinks she's not going to recover. well, i AM just being paranoid.
thanks to friends who calls/sms almost everydayto make sure i was doing fine (:
especially thanks to sam and cai bao, who will be constantly checking if my leg still looks like a trotter... HAHAHA!

i must also say sorry to people whom i can't keep up with my dates. i cancel my dates with friends for not feeling well. sorry to kim, ulrica who i always put aeroplane for sunday's exercise plans, sorry to yvette for not being able to make another date that we set, sorry to sam whom i put aeroplane MOST OF THE TIMES, and caibao, hahaha, u just gotta wait.
sorry my darling girls, i think i've missed out most parts of ur lives, please update me soon.
sorry darl lixia, i screwed the previous date we set, we shall catch up soon alright??
sorry my sisters and ball, i keep missing out dates.
and sorry to jin lee, lao da for not being to join u all when dated.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, actually i feel bored, dead bored at home, i'm dying of boredness i think. but i have no choice, i have to heal fast.
and i seldom go online now only cos the computer chair is just so not comfortable for me to rest the swollen pig trotter.

i had a therapeutic call from melbourne, it made my day. MUCH brighter! (:

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

Bachelor of social work (not an easy path but it will work out, 6/6 to go!)
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