today was a heavy load at school. blaw tutorial, hrm tutorial and cma lecture. but i would say that it was all rather digestable. especially cma lecture. it was very well understandable. for the first time,i think i'm liking cma lectures.

common tests are coming, i should start to study hard. other than studying hard and getting good grades, i don't have more brain juices to think of all other saddening stuffs. i have to jia you. (:

i want to slim!!! arghs! and nothing seems to work. i think i would have to resort to the same way i did it last time. however unhealthy, but who cares!! i just want those fats OFF! roars! help!

-we've taken the first move to show that we want things to be peaceful once again. it doesn't seem to work, but i canot care more. i think i've given the due respect, the maximum that i can do is to still call her when i see her. and of cos it also made me feel quite guilty when she has no one to talk to, and she seems just like an abandoned old lady. disheartening. but whenever the traumatising thoughts came rushing onto me, i dunno what i should do. anyone who knows me well, know that i would even take in stray kittens and i do voluntary work as much as i can. those who know me well knows that i cannot bear to see old people being abandoned, i cannot see ppl helpless. now i'm seeing her like that, i feel helpless, i want to show the care, but i dunno how. anyway, i think she's just being too uappreciative. mayb everything is torn apart ever since the slap, the quarrel; that fateful night.-

and I LOVE JEERIN! (as requested this line to be here. hahahahs!)

thanks to all who stood by us. thank you very much. u all are greatly appreciated. for we know there are people who care, people who ain't heartless, we will stay strong.
my darlings ( i know whether u gals know what exactly happened or not, u all will always stand by me. like always. like always giving me the moral support i needed. u gals give me the thought to stay stronger for i know u all will bever give up supporting me.) the toes ( the usual people who will motivate me to go to school, for i know they would stand by me and help me pull through all these pains.), ying tao ( for all i know, he would still be the one to give a little dosage of smile and confidence. the surge of energy. this time, he proved to be by me in tough times again.) ying ying ( the one who will never fail to be the most loveliest cuzzie. thank u darling!!!), xiao gu, dua yi and kor kor (and these people always give the greatest support and protection.).

i'm not ok but i will be strong. i'm not optimistic anymore, but i will be strong. i'm not cheerful anymore but i will be strong.

~i miss you daddy. only u can give me the drive, the motivation. u're that guardian angel, as always i know.~

thanks to all at my taggie.. u all are greatly appreciated. (: i'm fine already. guess it was the emotions then. but nevertheless, i've reckoned it's over.OVER.

it's sunshine jojo back here!!! (:
*** how did the jojo came about? i'm JOJO from now. hahahs. ezah is MOJO. and i'm JOJO. together we're mojojo. and we also have yan darling as buttercup, xian darling as blossom and xia darling as bubbles. hahahhahas!***

there's a whole lot if details in life that ought to be forgotten. there's a whole lot of memories, good or bad, lovely or sweet, sad or pain, it has to be forgone. nothing last forever. new chapters begin each time a memory is forgone.

went canoeing today. it was great! it was sunshine and rain, and it was sunshine after rain a while later. it's total fun. i just can't deny the fact that i love the sea, i love the sky. guess it never fails to make my mood right. and the company made it even more right. my darlings. (:

we went to the sports expo exhibition at suntec convention. it was cool. xian darling signed up for the california fitness member just like ezah did. i gues they are all on the way towards healthy and fit life. what do i plan to do? of cos i should not slack! i'm trying my best to swim alot, and take up as many sports as i can. as long as it doesn't guarantee my weak ankle to be injured, it's ok. hahahhas!

- how ironical, half the world population has the privilege of tasting rice and not liking it. the other half searching for food in pain from the rubbish dump. -

~ when u take the initiative, it's always about all other people. do u even care how this person here feels? thank you very much for being so nice. vicious cycle ; a moment of pains, then smiles. and it goes around all over again and again. ~

when there's cma e tutorial not done, when the brain is so dead at this moment that i can only do blogging and nothing else. when there's fmgt presentation to get ready but am too dead to think of what to say. when there's 1001 things unsettled for I&E and im already too tired to deal with them. i just need a little break and so i can be restored and be on form again.

there's just some people who don fail to make people feel down and upset.

- i dunno what the hell is wrong with you or wrong with me. is there really nothing we can talk about anymore? what is wrong?? what is wrong??!?!?!!? when it came a point i felt like breaking down, which is now. taking initiative to talk to u but either getting weird replies or no reply. and then ignoring me. and being really mean to me. and smiling and talking to all every other souls except me? what is wrong?

-if it wasn't love in the first place, if it wasn't feeling or chemistry or liking or watever it's called, do u have to be like that?
it hurts. tremendously. -

~no motivation, no drive. i need a dosage of smiles. my darlings? sisters? gayathri dearest? jegan? joyce dearie? yvette darling? the toes? cuzzies? mei?~
anyone.

it's been a long time since i blogged, only becos the blogger kept having problems only from my PC apparently, i dunno why.

it was stomach flu.

FMGT project on the run, I&E project on the run..... please be over soon. it's getting a little tougher as each week passes by.

-sometimes, just sometimes, it seems like everything is just not going fine but everyone just pretends to be normal-

this week please zoom pass, and i shall go canoeing on weekends, and meeting up with xia darl on friday. next week will be a better week!

~no motivation, no drive~

I FINALLY KNOW WHAT CMA IS ALL ABOUT!!!
although i still DO NoT like it very much.

the ladies
it's love!

the hunks (:
it's love!

the lovely ones in my life! loves loves loves loves!! (:
it's love!

it's been some time since i last updated.

vivo with ying ying, xiao gu, jeerin, camen, xian darl, yan darl ;
sentosa with ang, jin lee, chin nan, xiong lao da, belle, phionna, marcus, rissa, brian, alvin, jeffrey, joseph, xia darl, xian darl ;
salsa ;
watched high school musical.

the few days were great with fun fun fun, love love love! (:

it's gonna be a busy next few days cos there's this irritating test named CMA and i don think i can make it. seriously.

there's a large part of my life that i start to miss... some people (gayathri dearest, jegan dearest, joyce dearie) where are u people??

it's gonna be a start of the new week. there's cma unsettled.. and there's fmgt project that i've been staring at the textbook and found no clue how i should start the project rollin'.
i miss the toes. actually, i just felt like i should say this. without the toes, i'd have zero motivation to go to school. they are the ones. thanks darlings! (: and many people in school that will give me the drive to go school.

till laterrr.

yesterday was like a singapore tour for me. i went to school (clementi) from home (sengkang) as usual, then from school the toes and i went to bugis for ramen-ing, and Camen went to NAFA to pay for her fees. Then from NAFA we went to vivo city to get 2 printers for Erika. after which, jas and me left to west side. she went home while i was heading to lot 1 (choa chu kang). when i was at jurong east,i had a bad stomachache, i had to stop over for the toilet while jas go home first. and then from jurong east i travelled to lot 1 to catch the movie 'flushed away' with yingtao, xian and yan. and home i went. singapore tour eh?


i really feel like putting on braces soon. (:

i think he looks really good with shorts. he was wearing this surf pants, chucking his jeans and his usual wears aside, he looks fantastic. i think his new hair cut is cool too! he is just so perfect as an eye candy. (:

till laterrr. i'm tired.

alone while i was in bus 74, i switched on my mp3 player and decided to listen to the new songs i got from jasmine darling. and i teared.

dedicated to my dearest ones in Cambodia. dedicated to Roth Chearn, Rachel, Volita, Chantha and Srey Noy & each and everyone in FGAC:

the toes chilling at wala wala... where's sam? hees.. loves!
it's love!

nice! lao da.ezah.me!
it's love!

i like the scenery.
it's love!

ezah darl. loves.
it's love!

i like that.
it's love!

wth
it's love!

it's so lovely at the quarry.
it's love!

spastic!
it's love!

xian darl. loves.
it's love!

lovely.
it's love!

yingtao. me. loves =)
it's love!

yan darl. loves
it's love!

me and darlingsssss.... where's xia? next time ya? hees. =)
it's love!

the team. (=
it's love!

love this! but i only got one picture so far.. will upload more when i've got them.. credits to yan darling. loves. =)
it's love!

Friday:
went to DSA for voluntary work briefing. darlings and i are totally interested and we are prepared to doing regular voluntary work for the DSA. =) xia dar, i forgot to tell u, u can come for the voluntary work with us then sign up the application form. =) dinner was at kfc and we ate the chicken-taste-alike fish fillet. hahas.

Saturday:
it's been a million years since i had such a fulfilling day! it was totally ' living life to the fullest'! hahahas. morning was swimming at woodlands swimming complex with xian and ezah. then we went to causeway point food court for lunch. the chee cheong fun there is woohoo!! FANTASTIC! i've tasted better ones. it was like, the best! =) then we waited for xia darling at lot 1. i manage to get a new school bag.. like finally. it's nice, and i got it at a really low price. then i went to xian's house to change away my casuals and put on my lady dress. we were off to her friend. Gayathri 21st birthday at New Park hotel. it was so grand and it was banquet style.. and the food was kinda good also. after which we went to wala wala to meet erika, karis, camen, jasmine and vincent. it was chilling time. there were quite a lot of pictures taken. upload laterr when i got them from jas and camen darls. =) i think i would want to go to eski bar soon.. whee (=

Sunday:
we slept at about 2am and woke up at 7+ am this morning. 8.30am we met lao da, while chin nan, chin ye and anthony rode their motorbikes to tampines. me, ezah, yan, xian, lao da, ying tao took the painful way of travelling by bus to tampines to meet the rest. we set off to pulau ubin!!! =)
there were a total of 12 of us. me, ezah, yan, xian, yingtao, lao da, nizam, susan, geraldine, chin nan, chin ye and anthony. it was a really good trip cos i really enjoyed myself alot. i can't cycle for nuts so ezah darling, A BIG THANK YOU FOR MY LOVELY DARLING, she agreed to cycle double with me. =) it was tough when it's up slopes but other than that it was kinda ok. there were places we stopped over that was really cool, pictures laterrr.. when yan darling and lai da send them to me. =)
at one point of time, yingtao offered to swop with ezah. so he decided to cycle double with me. Another big thank you for attempting to. hahas. he's kinda bad at coordinating the two passengers bike i would say. and also, we were cycling on this really up slope and rocky way and i think he's pressured cos he didn't want me to fall off the bike. hahhas. anyway, chin ye took over the fun of cycling the doubles with me. i tell u, i can swear that he is VERY PRO! i think he's rather used to cycling on doubles? or rather, he is good at cycling with two of us, without me moving. i dun really have to move and he could manage the up slopes himself... he had no roblems with the rocky ways and he could manipulate the bike well even though there were no gears, no suspensions. it was functioning perfectly well like a mountain bike! we were the fatest throught the journey after he took over yingtao n ezah. ahahs.
** now i know who i can look for when i'm travelling on land (cycling), that chin ye! he's like a fast n swift cyclist carrying me as a passenger. then i also know who i can look for when i'm swirving on sea (canoeing), thats' yingtao for sure. he can jayaj n canoe like i'm on a speed boat, considering the fact that i don't have to pedal at all.**
chin nan was coming really close, but it was quite ok. he didn't do anything weird or funny, just getting very close.

i'm really tired now, i think i'm quite switched off to do tutorials. i just wanna stone. tmr is swimming with yan darling. we're thinking of kick-boxing. are we serious darl? oh ya, mayb i should just join the gym with ezah n xian.

~u're making me really confuse. i dunno what do u want? sawing ur reaction when i wanted to show u the video of Mr. ______ , u're maing me REALLY confused. maybe we should just talk things out. actually, i cannot judge what is my stand anymore.~

smiles.
it's love!

i like this. memories. (=
it's love!

love her
it's love!

more than precious. loves.
it's love!

i love them!
it's love!

little precious ones.
it's love!

precious one. =)
it's love!

precious one. =)
it's love!

he simply said: he don't wanna care about anything or anyone who is not regarding him. he would not ask or say anything not regarding him. ain't that obvious what he is driving at? i'm someone not regarding him.

joycie, it's time to move on.

thats so much so for liking someone you shouldn't. wake up idiot!

i felt slashed. it's a cut that will heal and leave no scars???

it's daddy's anniversary tmr. it adds up to all being emo now.

may i cry like a little kid all over again?

=)
it's love!

i love the phantom of the opera.
it's love!

=)
it's love!

camen n i caught by paparazzi.. nooooooooo!
it's love!

even bigger tiramisu! =)
it's love!

big tiramisu!
it's love!

just as i anticipated things to be, CMA was horrible. FMGT was only slightly better. is it me being really slow to catch whatever she was trying to say and explain or am i just plain dumb? it was horrible i swear. i'm starting to hate it and i think i'm having phobia for tuesday mornings' tutorials. i just hope i would be able to catch up soon. i think i need serious help from anyone who is able to teach me the magics to C M A !

rushed to grandma's right after fmgt. i hate to have multiple calls and make me feel so rushed and i might just collapse and suffer from hyper ventilation trying to breathe. roars!

sorry to everyone for not being able to make it for all these today. sorry to yuhong for not being able to go to his birthday celebration. i hope u enjoy urself my dearest friend, happy birthday! sorry to yvette darling for not being able to make it to shopping with her as planned. sorry to Camen who had to postpone her Sim Lim Trip to friday. sorry to sisters! there wasn't any get-togethers. i'm really sorry.

thanks erika for helping me tap for hrm lecture. =)

tmr is ecd + hrm + cma. i'm just quite looking forward to thursday.
and then friday is the day where i anticipate tears. it's daddy's 2nd year anniversary and we are going to pay our respects. time flies, and it's the second year already. but his presence still seems near, it's in my heart. u're loved =)

on the brighter side of things, i saw Mr. Billabong today! i bet he was wondering if he should say hi or to smile. as he walked further away from my sight, he looked back twice or thrice to check that he didn't see the wrong person cos i was just pretending not seeing him. hahahs. i think i should just look him into his eyes and say hi for once. i'm sucha failure! always too shy to even let him noe i'm actually looking. always pretending i'm not looking until he's far away then i realised i should just smile! roars. he is soooooooo irresistable.
i was thinking i could see him on friday. but i think i can only see him on next tuesday where i will be at the same place, anticipating his arrival. =)

yingtao just walked past me like he didn't see me. mayb he didn't see me. maybe he did. i just don't know what is wrong. and he is just so cold lately. i REALLY dunno what is happening. whatever.

i miss my darlings (xia,xian,yan,ezah). ALOT! where are u gals?

i need a hug, right now.

the day didn't start off very well. it was a gloomy monday. was it monday blues? i think so. anyway, i hope tomorrow would be a better day. subtracting CMA tutorial. i reckon it's gonna be quite difficult for me tomorrow cos i don think i can do it. i'm gonna be quite dead. i need to work on it after this post. roars! everything else is fine just except CMA. someone gotta help me please?

yan darling got her swim wear today! jasmine and camen came along to lot 1 with us also. we had dinner together and i met ezah after that. i've got what i wanted, happy (thanks ezah darling for helping me get it), but it's gonna be penniless for quite some time. i need a job urgently! recommendation anyone? =)

tomorrow is yuhong's birthday! officially eighteen boy! it's get-togethers with sisters and sc'05!!

erika and camen and sam and jas are loved, always. i cannot imagine school without them because it's already part and parcel of me. one more sem n we might get separated to different class. i don't want!

friday is gonna be revision day with yvette darling. it's time to work on it before it accumulates and it's last minute work all over again. i dont want that to happen. my aim this sem is to work real hard. other than hrm lects and ecd lects, i've been a good girl for all others . i should keep it that way.

sometimes, i just can't help but think that all guys are jerks and what they want is the ultimate aim. and i don't understand why this is so. it's 101 times i heard of these issues pertaining XXX and guys getting nasty over these. and for the past few weeks it's been this happening to different people in my life. GUYS SHOULD JUST PLEASE GET A LIFE, a proper one please. thank you very much.

it's gonna be canoe, swimming, cycling at pulau ubin, canoe expedition, salsa, DSA for the next few weeks. it's me and my darlings. loves! =)

~我的悲伤你不在意, 说过的话飘过脸颊, 我无法挥去一切从新再来...~
~舍不得我为什么说再见, 能不能收回我说的每一句话...舍不得我为什么不忘记...~

the toes!! =)
it's love!

spastic us! =D
says cheese! =)

sam + me!
says cheese! =)

jas + me =)
says cheese! =)

jas.me.samsam. toes!
says cheese! =)

jas and me. the toes.
says cheese! =)

erika. the toe! =)
says cheese! =)

camen. the toe =)
says cheese! =)

me and the ikea-ed stuffs! hahahs
``__saYs cheesE__``

yippee-ya-ya-yippee-yippee-yaa~

today wasn't vivo.. it was ikea! (me.jas.camen.sam.erika.jiahao.vincent). we were all having sooo much fun ikea-ing. but somehing did come and spoil our mood during dinner..
i dunno if she was attention seeking to approach the tutor directly, but i would say it wasn't quite nice. and furthermore, we are already six in a group and she's insisting on 7? well well, i don wan to comment much about this cos i think all these are too complicated. i just would say that the toes would NOT split for any case. i love them. =) they are my sugar pies! for a reason or two, vincent is now very much part of us... juicy juicy yummy-licious news please come our way soon! hahahs.

i went swimming this morning before lessons. i would say that swimming takes off all the pains and woes and troubles.. it's just me and the waters. the waters and me. i like it that way.

i don't have much to say about things that are so complicating. each time it's getting more complicated. for some reasons, i think i'm too tired to deal with this trivial part of my life, and i'm just gonna give it a pass. i don want to rant more about this issue. it has got to be all the hurting words, all the hurtful words. it wasn't like that cos pple can be quite tolerant until a point of time when they feel so hopeless and so tired just trying to put things in a better position. remember when u were drifiting apart, i would always feel so bad, and feel so pain, and had to msg u more than once a day trying to make sure u're engaged in the group, and u ignored everything? and when things finally were back to normal and everything is more than fine, u had to say we left u out and u had to say watever to us for getting the last min ticket even though we really tried so hard to get it for u? when i always WANT to be there for you, and ALWAYS hope i can be there for you but u always would think u live alone? how i try never to fail you but would always ended up not pleasing u in the end? i dunno. i think i'm quite exhausted trying to make things fine once more. like u said nobody reads ur blog but actually i follow them closely? actually, almost all the time i clicked on somebody's blog, it's you i'd click first. even up till this point of time, it's remains. but, how i always see hurtful things that's unbearable? if i didn't cherish, if i werent concern, i wouldn't be feeling the pain now. if ur words didn't hurt, would it be better? it's just so weird how 20 year olds are now puzzled with friendship and not relationships? and i treasure friendships more than anything else... more than ANYTHING ELSE. like i thought saturday was actually fine? we were waiting for u at white sands since 5pm but u weren't able to make it on time n we tot mayb we should just give the shuttle bus a miss too so that we all might reach at the same time, and ur words at ur blog kinda hurt me alot cos we were labelled. cos our initial intention was to just be there late as well so that it wouldnt be weird for you, and u managed to get there earlier and we made u waited. perhaps you wouldn't be reading this anymore cos i did read ur recent post of how the things shared r all bull shit. the things we share are lovely memories i had, but all the treasuring n cherishing, perhaps bull shit. not referring only to u, but to me. cos i think this time round, i'm making the minimal effort to try n patch things up cos i'm really exhasuted. take care, for i really do care, even till now.

sorry for all the rubbish i have to put here.

anyways, i'm still deciding on purely HRM or my initial plan of HRM + Marketing. i love wednesday nights cos i can sleep early but wakey real late tmr morning cos class is at 1pm. =) i gotta get down to my blaw tutorial or i might get really blur and lost on friday morning. fri would be meeting sisters to write letters for our dearest. and sat would be shirmain's concert with huifen,huilin,yuting,and siuqin. my dearie girls! =) and to nizam's place for hari raya. it's gonna be nice with spicy hot stuffs and lovely cakes. =)

JOYCE DEARIE: lunch lunch lunch soon? how come i haven been seeing u in school? misses bug time! loves.

it's amazing how things change drastically over time. =)

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

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