Thursday, July 31, 2008 ' 7:24 AM
dear all,
i'm discharged from hospital, lesser in pain and am blogging to let the whole wide world know that i'm slowly recovering, no speedy recovery for me but i am grateful i'm healing.
i want to use a big bright font on this little space, to thank god, thank heaven, thank mother nature for giving me a very blessed life with everything and everyone i ever needed in my life...when i was down, i saw how many people cared from their bottom of their hearts, gave me whatever they could, and they blessed my life with everything i will ever need. these are people i will never let go in my life and i am ME (a whole new, well and cared for ME) today for the presence of these people. even if the medicine didn't work, even if the drips didnt flow in my body, even if there were nothing else doctors could do to save me, these people gave me the strength, the motivation, the determination to stnd up strong again. and they did it from their hearts and touched my heart, truly.
i'm going to list everything everyone because it meant so much to me, and it meant so much so that i'm never ever gonna let go of these people ever, no matter what...
1. my family. my WHOLE FAMILY. i love all of you. thanks for everything, thanks for going through these pains, and through all the difficulties...
thanks my grandmothers who worries for me most. thanks my aunties who goes through every detail with me.. thanks my sis for EVERYTHING, and thank my mum for letting me see how much a mother can do beyond everything.
2. MY FRIENDS.
Lixia: she was the FIRST to be waiting at the emergency department, waiting for me to be admitted, to be warded and everything. she was there almost everyday every minute for the first week of my hospitalisation. she made porridge, she bought whiteboard and markers for me so i could communicate with people without opening my ulcerted mouth. she bugged nurses to get things for me, she sat there string into air when i dozed off, she went through the most painful times with me at the initial stage... i thank her for everything and she's totally appreciated for everything because through these years, she never failed to stand by me....... I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Zixian: she also came almost everyday through the first week... she brought dvd player for me, she brought vcds for me so i wouldn't be bored... she sat there aimlessly just to be my companion... she came even though she had busy schedules at school... she helped drove my mum and sis home when it was late... she bought markers and refills for me when lixia's supply went down.... thanks for everything, my appreciation is beyond just words... I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Qiuyan (Venecia): thank you my dear for being the nurse's attendant on the first night of my pain... u didn't get turn off from the ugly sores on my buttocks but instead helped with the dressing... u helped applied medicine, u didn't get turn off by the disgusting way i gargle and u didn't turn away any looks from the sores i showed... again, anything everything is very very appreciated!!! I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Likim: she came down late nights after work, and asked her bf to send my family home because it was late.. she went through so many miles just trying to find a store selling porridge that was meant for just swallowing and i wont need to chew... she went through everything and showed her true concerns every night by sms-ing me and making sure i was healing day by day... I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Ulrica: she came with her lovely sunshine smile and ensured that i would be fine, be great, be good and i'd be in shape again to enjoy food like we always did.. she told me i would get well and then next year we'd be travelling to taiwan for shopping and food! I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Loh WC: my sister, my buddy.. who came on the first night and then said it was really stuffy for me and it's no good for ventilation... and then the very next day, he brought a brand new portable fan with multi purpose plug to the hospital so that i won't be stuffy and hot!!! i'm more than just touched. I LOVE YOU BUDDY!!!
Jenny: Thanks darling for making time out of ur busy times to see me.. she encouraged me with looking forward to going to lau pa sat for our big feasting again..... cockles, rojak, wings, everything!! thanks for everything darling. I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Kailin: my dearest girl who always spurs me on with shopping trips and feasting.... she promised a shopping trip so i could really look forward (: I LOVE YOU DARLING.
Pauline: i haven seen this dear girl for ages and when she saw me, i was lying on that hospital bed! the next time we meet, i don wan to be 'cui'... thanks for coming down even though u had endless work to do.. u're really relly appreciated.. misses!!!
JiSheng: the one with crushed rub cage and still never fail to accompany lixia to entertain this sick patient. thanks bro! (:
FAEZAH: I MISS YOU MY DEAREST BOO!!!! I KNOW HOW WORRIED U'D BE WHEN U KNOW THE NEWS SO I MADE SURE I DIDN'T TELL U.. I DON WAN U TO FEEL WORRIED AND U JUST STARTED SEMESTER! I'LL BE FINE AND STRONG. ur sms-es boost my motivation everyday... I MISS YOU, I JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! loves.
yeo ah kee: my ah kee came and told me one good motivation to move me on... ferrero rocher has this new dark chocolate, that does NOT contains nuts!!! i love u ball (:
sua: u came with ur vibrnce and smiled as bright as the sunflowers u girls brought.. i love u sister! (:
YuHong: my dearest bro who came with ribena and cheesecake! the ribenas were my energy booster for 2days because i cant eat solid food.. and welll, the nice strawberry cheesecake were consumed with happiness by my sister. roars!! thanks bro, for everything!!! (:
Lao Da: needless to say more, the one who came whenever he could, and making sure i was ok. always the one caring for me, making sure even when he went tioman someone would take good care of me. he told me to contact ah ho when he's away and he made sure he came to see me the moment he reached singapore from tioman. LAO DA, thanks for everything, loves!!!
Nizam: my dearest bro who never fail to make my day bright... his smiles, his jokes his nonsense, his everything keeps me going. thanks bro... for coming right after the tioman trip... u guys touched me!! loves...
Ah Ho: the one who came almost everyday, and stayed late every night. thanks bro, FOR EVERYTHING!!! i think my mum really likes you for the everything u did.. hahaha... thanks buddy! i appreciate you alot (:
Darren: this brother here also made the trip down right after the tioman trip... touched touched!! thanks for everything, and i love u guys, for everything...
Yeong Sen: he lost his smiles and jokes when he saw me lying on that bed... i could see from his eyes he wanted badly for me to quarrel with him and hit him hard on his chest so that he could smack me hard on my arms... thanks buddy, for showing me how much u really cared, ur sms-es made me smile everyday.. loves (:
Chin Nan: thanks for EVERYTHING (:
Yingtao: thru ur packed schedule and duties, u managed to squeeze time to come and visit me and sent my family home without asking and u always have a different way of showing concern. i appreciate you for whatever u did... thanks darling, for everything. loves (:
my colleagues: thanks for everything, every encouragement, every words counts... and thanks for the flowers, tonics, bird nest, honey, everything and everything. especially thanks to my GL. steph, u make working life wonderful, u gave me encouragement beyond words that can ever describe.. LOVE U!!
my classmtes: the whole class sent well wishes and a hamper... especially thanks to kelly who was there at the hospital when i fainted in the toilet. u were of gretest help to my sister then. and thanks for the encouraging books... thanks for all the classmates who came to visit me throughout the days... u all made a difference to my motivation and my drive to move on.. thanks everyone, for everything.
i also just wan to thank anyone, everyone who stood by me through all these pains... i'm feeling better, and i will go on strong...
with loves,
joyce
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
