Saturday, May 10, 2008 ' 9:36 AM
[SOMEONE WHO LIVES IN YOUR HEART]
Last night I dream that you were beside me
It seems so real that I cried
When you've touched me
You’re my angel
And you've given me wings
And I fly away with you wherever you go
Cause you filled my heart and you captured my soul
And baby i want you to know
If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean or mountain can keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All the hopes and the dreams are alive
I'll carry you with me through distance and time
Nothing in this world can keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
And I know there's a million stars between us
But that won't stop my longing
To hold you and to kiss youHow I love you
And I'll find my way to you wherever you are
Coz you're in my soul and you've got my heart
And your love will carry me on
nice song (:
i was born the eldest, the word implies me to be someone who should be independent. and indeed, i look independent, i seem independent, and i might be really independent. and i think i am all of the above. everyone has that impression of me, and it's so prominent in me that i think it's written on my face, 'independent girl'.
today i met lao da, ying tao and qiuyan for dinner and movie... while qiuyan was on her way and yingtao was busy buying food, lao da and i were discussing how sometimes we have so many friends buy still feel lonely at times.. and then we started discussing in our own perspective how we might put off the opposite sex.
he says i don't put him off cos i come across to him with the first impression of being very sunshine and bubbly, warm and friendly... BUT... guys tend to think that i'm the outgoing independent kind, totally a best buddy, someone whom they will turn to, speak to, hang around with and i totally fit the bill to be those who drinks and watch soccer with them as a buddy. someone always game for any challenge, someone who can lend them my shoulders when they fall out of love.
and i agreed that's me.
i said i don't have the plus point, i'm not pretty. i don't have what alot of girls have.i'm not gentle. i'm loud. i'm rough and tough, at least i seem to be. and i think guys like those who has 'i need to be cared for' face to let them melt. which, i also do not have. they like girls softspoken, lady like, which i am not too.
and he tries not to agree but i know deep down that he agrees.
and then on my way home i was pondering about this 'independent' issue and felt really sad... just because i LOOK independent, everyone seems to assume i am. just because i always look so bubbly and cheerful, people think i am NEVER SAD. just because i AM independent, just because i don't look frail, i look ugily tough and rough, people do not care much about me. and really don't. i know it, i sense it.. cos it happens in my family with my family members tnking i'm superwonderwoman who knows everything, can do anything, everything. they seldom care about my thoughts or feelings, i know they are just very sure that i'm always able to cope, but sometimes, just sometimes i need a few words of care and concern.
and after the heart to heart talk with lao da just now, it makes me feel like i'm never going to get someone who would just be there for me, taking into consideration for the fact that sometimes, just sometimes, i break down too.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
