Monday, November 05, 2007 ' 3:17 AM
it's painful, really.
i dunno how i should voice it, it's just painful.
i talk like i have short tongue, i prefer not to talk.
i eat like there's a zillion bees stinging me, i prefer not to eat.
jeerin says i'd lose a few kg from this, i was shocked to hear myself saying. ' i'd rather be fat then.'
yes, it's THAT painful.
i went to the polyclinic, and the last remedy is to be referred to the specialist.
and the appointment date is yet to be confirmed.
so, the agony goes on...
name me the painkillers u have in your shelves, u name it, i have it, and taken it.
it doesnt seems to help, really.
ponstan? panadol? panadol extra for stronger pain relief? paracetamol?
throw them, they don help. at least, they don help me!
how about naming the ulcers creams?
oracort? bonjela? difflam?
and what have you.
and the doctor told me today, it's not just an allergic reaction.
it's notviral or bacteria.
it's something to do with ur low immunity system that doesnt seem to help heal anything in ur body, u need a specialist. they will do tests for you to check what is really wrong.
HAHAHAS! isn't that the most happening to hear?
but well, i've always known i've got low immunity. people who knows me well, knows it too. i cannot help it. let's see if the specialist would be able to help me. i hope (:
don worry, i'm optimistic. it's just ulcers and sores! it's really nothing much. ha!
thinking on the bright side, i've got fantastic ppl ard me. really.
ezah offered to take leave so i could walk in to a&e at ttsh. (now that thy refer me to ttsh specialist, it seems like she's gonna take that half day leave for sure. HAHAS!)
kee will supervise me on what i eat everyday.
phy racked her brains to help think of where are the good doctors she's been to.
yt called and asked if the condition is better, and ask me to go see chinese physicians for remedies. HAHAS!
lao da texted me to drink loads of water.
ven always ask me to take special good care.
lw offers hugs (:
ah ma is gonna make some traditional drink to help support the immune system
xiao gu is best of all. she's gonna make soup, cook chestnut drink and i don think i'd enjoy her dishes tmr but i shall be contented with just the soup.
and many many others. thanks to people ard me, i'm feeling ok even if it hinders me.
i'm so looking forward to the coming days. we are gonna meet brandon and COMMANDOR SL at changi airport for dinner on wednesday. ezah, let's seriously take a good look at SL if he's grw much more muscles! hahas.
this song plays on my tracklist repeatedly, liang jing ru FLY AWAY. i like.
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some insights. the doctor mentioned auto immune, which i seriously got no idea what it is. was on the phone with ezah, and she enlightened me. auto immune in short means my anti bodies attack my own body! *gasps!*
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
