Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ' 8:19 AM
second day of school.. IF was predictably indigestable. bad for the stomach.. very bad.. hahas.. i must say the lecturer is really nice, and he emphasized it's a small group so it's really flexible.. let's hope so, really. cos IF is like a few times more 'chim' than IEF. so..... i think this is something i wont miss...
i've decided to give IBS a miss tmr.. ulcers love me. i dunno why buy i'm having a zillion ulcers now. :( it always happen, and yes, i dunno why.
the weather has been really bad these days.. i was at the bus stop alone just now, it was so dark, it was pouring, it was so cold, the mp3 was playing 'show me the meaning of being lonely', my favourite song to play when it's a rainy day, but this time, i didn't purposely fwd or rewind to that song, it just happened to be playing... and yes, it just never fails to make me feel blue. not exactly emo, just feeling the blues....some things ran through my mind, some people came to my mind, some memories came by too..i picked up my phone to text, not expecting a reply but hoping my text was sent and received. why are some things just so difficult to shake off? much as i want to, and much as i think i HAD gotten over it, it seems to prove to me that it is still there, right in the core of my mind.so many times, i thought it's over, and then next i realised it's not. i dunno how u feel, but it seriously doesnt appeal to me that way. it's not hurting, it's just not working out. for many many other reasons other than the drifting away. i just hope i dont become wishy washy all over again. though u assured it's not one sided, i cannot help but feel it is. well, some things, if not meant to be, will never be. on the optimistic side, what is meant to be, will be. take care, i hope the weather is not making things tougher for you. :)thong kiat sms-ed. yes, thong kiat. HAHAS. still as joker, but think he's changed. hahas, yes i know i cannot judge much from the sms-es, but he sounded more mature. aiya, everyone's turning 21. can say OLD already, so let alone being matured. anyway we made plans for some 'la kopi' session when NS allows him to, then there can be some catching ups. hmm, lately, im so missing all the sec sch people. i think i really want to do lots of catching ups!!! (:
those were the days........ we were childish, but it was all fun, fun and more fun.
last semester of poly will also be loads of fun. i hope. i just sincerely hope for a normal project group, not greedy to expecting anything nicer than my toes, but i wouldnt mind if there are as nice and fun group of people. but im contented with just normal people whom i can hang ard with, and work well with. now that im away from the toes, it makes me happy just to be able to see them for a few minutes a day. loves. (:
im eating too much i need exercise!
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
