Friday, October 19, 2007 ' 9:39 AM
i had a bad day. really bad day.
ulcers are killing me, seriously killing and ngawing at every part of my mouth... they love me, but i do not reciprocate. i hate them!
how i wished there is 50hrs in a day. then i can make plans properly. then i can work, and school and teach tuition and meet friends and meet people who loves making impromptu decisions.
i think i pissed everyone around me today. or rather, i'm pissed by i dunno what reason. i'm like a time bomb, anytime, i go into explosion mode. sorry. :(
you sent a text saying to meet for movie without prior notice, i had to reject cos i had to work. and you sent a really explosive msg that made my mood went down down and down. i din just rejected u, i rejected everyone else too. and what more? u said i left u with no choice, made you cancelled two programmes just to spend time with me and then i went to work, what's like the worst thing in the msg was.... u actually assumed i went to meet my friends, or meet some other randoms and jolly cooked up the 'excuse' of gotta work. heys, i feel equally bad for always having to reject you.
i know u have no choice but to make impromptu decisions, yes, NS made it so impossible for something to be well planned, but i really didn't know we will be meeting.
i guess this is what many people rant about:
commitment.and then he had to be pissed and make me pissed with the kind of smses he sent. he tected to ask if i'm free tomorrow. i have to attend brandon's 21st bday party in the evening, so i said we can meet at night. he texted back saying then nvm tot of asking u for lunch. (when he knows i work 8-6 every sat!) then i asked sunday, he said he's not free. and he suggested tmr night for dinner, WHEN I ALREADY TOLD HIM I'M GOING TO BRANDON'S PARTY. so i said ok, 8plus, and he replied with NAH. hello brother, i know u just booked out and u're optimising time, i'm also more than happy for the msg u sent cos it seemed u sent it right before u booked out at 10plus... glad u bothered to do so, and yes, NS made is even more difficult for a planned date. im sorry with the cold replies cos i din wan to explode, especially to you.
i rejected Venecia as well, and i rejected many others today. i'm sincerely sorry.
then nizam was kinda angry with me cos he ALSO PRESUMED that i had plans with lao da after making plans with him. i did not!
i think, im the one who's explosive, not everyone else. sorry.
nites. i guess ulcers are affecting every part of me, including: TEMPERAMENTS.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
