Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ' 5:20 AM
i hate to be blogging about negative stuffs once i start on this typing pad. but it's building up in me, and it's certainly getting on my every nerves!
i don't know what's the freaking problem, and what exactly went wrong. it's as though first it's my fault, then it was publicised and then next it's a total cut off. isn't it weird how two person can be besties at one moment and the next we can't even text each other?! now that texting has to be through her bf! how infuriating! dammit!
i never wanted to cut ties off totally, and i never wanted all these to just go down the drain FOR NOTHING. if i say i didn't feel anything when i read those things, i am definitely lying. and if i were to say i didn't feel anything for losing something i thought was so close and precious, i am heartless. what was worse? there were so many times i wanted to just text and say i'm sorry for all the things that had happened but the thought of what has all been publicised just made me think twice if i should even apologise.
what's worse now? that all it's left is a middle party passing messages, which i felt was total redundant, plus... it's just goes to prove even more to me that i meant nothing, at all.
sorry for the rants.
TEN TONS was great, efforts go to the main comm people who made it possible, and i'm really glad yvette darling was with me throughout the event. i missed her so much, and it wasn't exactly catching up, but it felt great with her presence again. loves, girl. (: and thanks to all the student volunteers and my student leaders who made it possible for our area to be a success. thanks loads.
i'm totally thrilled to have done something on sunday, and it's gonna be fun fun and fun! i'm also joining a land and sea expedition to TRY and complete my NYAA award, hahhas! i hope i can though.
yuhong has our cambodia letters and i'm patiently waiting for him to be free to pass me the letters. we are all anxious and excited to get them. i miss my kids so much. sooo much. not forgetting to mention that i miss lesley six so much, and fhcc.stonage sisters. the kind of bonding...
ezah and i are gonna see each other almost every other day in august! hahhas! c'mon gal, u're gonna love it i know~ lols! First Aid course is gonna be fun and she's gonna take a day off for our mugging of first aid exam. hahas!
projects are almost done, JUST ALMOST. there is one last final report yet to be done, i need to get the executive summary done for erika to edit and thanks erika toe for all the editing works. we all know it's tiring, but THANKS A HUGE LOAD. swimming tmr! (:
why must i made to feel down when i'm not the involved party?!
yingtao, where are you!? :(
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
