Sunday, June 17, 2007 ' 7:36 AM
我的好别人应该永远都看不到。
对别人好， 但永远得不到认同。
在别人眼里， 我应该永远都是可有可无的吧。
我会慢慢学会更加独立（就像大家都一口认同的，我是独立的），反正在每个人的眼里，我就是个不需要关心，不需要关怀的人就对了。
你们可以渐渐把我忘记，放弃。也可以永远看不见我的重要，我不会怪谁。
我也会学着了解我的存在只是废墟。
most people would say a person's main moral supprt comes from the family, sometimes, i can't help but feel that my family only drains me, totally. maybe that's how people learn and grow, maybe if i can take it and i can survive thru, that's when i glow. maybe...
but well, all i think of is them, care for is them, but they seems to fail their eyesight just on me. mayb when i start to ponder if i should just go overseas to venture, i don't have to think about any of them. anyway, i'm supposed to be INDEPENDENT, like what they want me to be, and sad to say to them, I AM! MAYBE I REALLY DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF EMOTIONAL SUPPORT, I'M BETTER OFF myself, alone.
most frens are the ones standing by me, when i needed the most emotional help. or rather, most of my emo came from the root of the family. what are frens for is what my frens say. what are family for is what i wan to ask and know.
well, anyway, like i always say, those who say won't do n those who don't say will. i may keep complaining, and yakking about all the pains, but i haven been doing what i've been saying, that is to ignore them, have i? 往往放不下就是最痛苦的。
please pardon me, i just needed to vent it somewhere, and i felt this is the only space left for me to relieve. thank you.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
