Sunday, May 27, 2007 ' 6:24 AM
saturday night never fail to mean TIREDNESS. it has never been once that i can sleep real late on saturday nights.. not that i don't want to, but i can't. i knocked out at 9pm after i signed out of msn. omg. and i woke up at 11am this morning. well, i dunno.. hahhas! life during weekends has since been lifeless...
tmr is IR quiz, and i haven do much. well, i have to turn in early, wake up early since the paper is at 11am tmr during lecture. bless me!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA!!! (:
june will be busy busy for me. projs, work, PLAY, PLAY & PLAY! hahahs. and i'm off to a genting trip with my cousins&sister and aunts! hahhas! it's gonna be hell loads of FUN.... theme parks, thrill rides, mahjong, poker cards, and the older generation would be heading to the casino, we'd be having real fun in the room. hahhas! at least, that's wad i foresee, at the moment! (:
sometimes, i cannot help but think i have no significance at all. not only does she care less, not only she made it like i'm transparent, i'm like a non-existent being. slowly, it felt like, my presence is insignificant, and all i ever exist, is for the sake of money.
and then it also seems the same among people, like my existence is as scattered as air... nobody seems to feel that i'm of importance... or am i just not important, or useful in anyway?
u noe how mum talks to u only about money and nothing else? and when she talks to your sister, it's always about EVERYTHING ELSE?
u noe how friends come to you, not asking about how u're doing but how all of ur other friends are doing?
u noe how guys come to you, asking and checking out about the girls around u, and telling u that u're so guy-like, just like their buddies? and all ur other gal friends are princesses?
u noe how people always make decisions and tell u only when decisions are made?
and u noe how people expect u to be accomodate to them, and when u can't make things the way they want, u're like a fool?
HAHAHHAS. i was wondering, maybe.. this is how much people see in me. (:
enough of emo-ing. like, what's the point of emo-ing when after all the emo episodes, all these are still going to come back. but i think i should need some emotional management class, or anger management class, or maybe, i just need some serious counselling before i turn schizo.
was talking to angeline yesterday at work, then we realised how fast the semester will end, and then there's holidays then the next sem starts and ends in a flash. then we wondered what we wan to do. uni or work? well, got money then uni lor, no money then work lor.. hahhas. that's wad concluded, but i think it's time to take some serious planning. i'm at this point of diversity, i think i might work and study at the same time. (:
nah, dunno. just clear tmr's test first then say.
read ezah's post, and she blogged about an article in CLEO magazine, girls think that they are better off single. which i totally agree, cos i've been single since 4 years ago, and i'm happy, and free.. cos i'm not in love. i don't deny the fact that it could be nice if you have someone for you there, but i'm sure it's only sometimes when u yearn that there's someone close for you. friends can do the same! at least, for me, i'm happy for i have so many lovely friends, and i have many people whom i can turn to in times of need, and i know most of them are always there for me, at least mentally they will be. (:
i'm meeting kim tmr for dinner! yayys! (:
yawns. nites.
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
