Monday, May 07, 2007 ' 4:29 AM
moshi moshi!
it's been quite some time since i blogged, hmmm, well it's been rather busy for me.
details aside cos there's just too much to talk about, and too much to blog about if i needed to list the details...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIN LEE, CHIN PING, ROSIE!
went for the celebration, had steamboat... had been drinking quite alot these days... chin nan's birthday drank red wine, yesterday was red wine also, and i had a tinge of white wine the day before. it's nice. i think those that yingtao got from the wine place were really nice. (: and i think i've been eating alot of cakes! hahhas! it's the may season with 'happy birthday to you' and cakes! hahhas!
pictures laterr.
there were so much that happened in this past week that i dunno how to blog about. i have my set of opinions that i dunno how it should go about. i have this urge to spill them off but i dunno where it should go about.
everyone in the house thinks we're an item but we're certainly not. just one reason to say that we're not, for we're REALLY NOT AN ITEM. but so many voices and reasons that makes it all sound so real. as the denial goes on, the voices all get louder pushing against the denial. not just one person, not just two persons, but many. what's that difference at the edge of the thin line, separating 'love' and 'friends'?
they say we act like one, but we're not acting at all...
they say we just look like one, but we never look into the mirror as one before...
they say we were always on the same frequency, but we insist we are opposites...
they say we stick around together, but we really do repel alot...
they say we depend alot on each other, but we are two independent beings...
they say we deny the fact, but we were stating the truth...
him: what's there i dun dare to say to u de lor!!!
her: ya lar!! what's there that u say n i cannot take it one lor!!!
someone: those three words lor!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAS!
there were some sort of weird silence between us after the comment, something so weird that it's the first time i felt like digging into a hole and hide. i could feel his silence, bridging in between the close proximity of us... we didn't talk much after that in the whole night.
it seems like he thought that i was angry with him which i wasn't of cos, or there was just some sort of awkwardness. we just said bye at the traffic junction.
he wanted to drive me home but he forgot and drank wine. it was really ok cos i don want to deprive him from partying just cos he need to send me home. i'm fine taking a cab home. (:
he was really apologetic, but i'm really fine with it. i'm not some selfish girl who flares up cos of this small matter. i appreciate the kindness of wanting to drive me home, and that's already enough. (:
yingtao, is the jewel of my heart, someone not handsome not dashing, but stand importance in my heart, more than any handsome guys does. HAHAHAHAHHAHHAS! i don't deny the fact that i cannot do without him in my life, just like i cannot do without with my friends and many others, i also do admit the fact that i will never want to cross that thin line between love and friends, cos i'm happy for who we are, what we are now. be it friends, more than friends, or if there's a term to describe this buddy system. i cannot afford to lose this being in my life, so it will remain as it is, for as long as it can. (: he's enlisting soon... real soon....
the one thing that i never want to lose in myself is, independence..... i may be blur, but i'm sure of my independence. ezah will know what i mean. (:
xia, ezah, xian, erika, jasmine birthdays up next! there are just too many 'happy birthday to you' in may for me. (:
-i wanna getaway, to somewhere i could leap into waters and walk over hills!
♥dedicated compassion and loves.
