it's been rotting at home most of the times during this holiday. soon, it's gonna be over... went to xian's house for mahjong today (i won big big time!), but it's only for a while cos her mum had guests around so we packed up rather early and now i'm home rotting and blogging already. hees.. (:
tomorrow is new year's eve...
what's everyone's new year wish this year? what it may be, i hope everyone's happy and world peace (:
happy new year, everyone.

to my darlings: it's another new year coming, so our friendship is 8years and counting on... (: loves.. over the years, without u gals, there isnt smiles and there isnt fun. there isnt moral support and there isnt love. love that comes, from friendship. three cheers girls!! (:

to jeerin and persis: it's a new year!! buck up well on ur studies and ying ying, i hope u get into the course of ur dreams. i'll be waiting for u at np!! loves (:

to sisters: happy new year! and when are we gonna meet for dinner?? misses.

happy new year, to my kids in cambodia. i miss u all.

really addicted to hana kimi and of cos, really really addicted to my addiction, wu zun! (:

my stomach is giving me alot alot of problems. i hope it gets better soon. i haven been eating alot, and well, i hope it gets well soon... oh by the way, i have the determination to really shed those fats off. (: i need to, cos then i can perform better in my 3star kayaking. (:

someone told me, it's time for another new chapter of life with him. maybe? if u're reading, u're really nice and have been there most of the times when i needed someone. i think i need more time? but i do like you i'm quite sure. (:

this song is nice:
白色的风筝
安静的纯真
真实的感觉
梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水
复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着
握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头
我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人
会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远

i finally got my 2star for kayaking (: i like the course very much. probably cos i had great companions (my darlings), and it was total fun. except for the regular thing i got at the last day of the course, other than that, everything else was total fun! (: i shall train relaly hard for my 3star. i will have to really cut down alot alot of my weight, be total fit to join 3 star cos i think i might not be able to capsize and self recover if i were to be so freaking heavy!!!

merry christmas everyone! (:

the new addiction, is him. yes, the handsome one posted on my blog earlier. omg! he.. is.. just so.... cute. if only he is my lover.. hahhas! (:

a song, that speaks how i feel, towards you.

解脱 [李玖哲]

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起
为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系
愈是相处不容易
伤害了你我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话
我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

for so many times i've said i want to mov on, for so many times i said i should forget, this time, i will. (:

one word to summarise, ADDICTION!! (:
it's love!

this is just soooooo.. omg! he's my addiction....
it's love!

total addiction! (:
it's love!

it's been a long long long time since i blogged!! well, i'm back, on form (:

last saturday we helped out with the DSA big event of the year at victoria concert hall. we slacked most of the times, but it was fruitful at the end of everything. i like seeing the kids, their smiles are more genuiine than anything on earth. (: and they had the best paintings ever? like, totally expressive with their feelings.

sunday was the start of our 2star kayaking. it was pretty fun, except the fact that i had difficulty getting up the kayak after the capsize, i was so panicky and i dunno. but other than that, everything else was fine. i think i prefer the 'dancer' compared to the 'bandit'. it's really swift, and it drifts alot. i like the feeling of drifting on sea. (: a little passion makes me go a long way. after completing 2 star, next is 3 star. that's when the real challenge comes i guess? oh, and i forgot the mention that, changi sea sports club has open sea water condition, so it's really very diffrent from kallang basin. the waves and current comes as they like, pretty unpreductable. maybe we can take our three star at changi also. cos i like the environment. just that open sea is rather dirty. hahhas. not that anywhere in singapore has clean and clear sea water, but i was just procrastinating. (:

monday and tuesday were practically rotting at home. only because the rain just wouldnt stop. i wanna go swim but the rain stops all water activities. i wanted to run, and the rain goes on and on without a second of rest. i just wanna go out and have a chill, but it's already pretty chiily at home. it's just sleeping and sleeping and rotting. i'm a potato couch. i managed to finish watching ah wang already. it's so nice, and it's so sweet!! (: it made me tear alot nearing the ending. (:

tomorrow we have plans to go to wild wild wet. (me, jeerin and terence) but, well... i just feel that the rain would just keeps on and on. i really hate rainy days. it makes me feel blue and i miss the sun.
"show me the meaning of being lonely..." thats what the rain always makes me singing. roars.

christmas is coming and, i dunno if i should get any presents. if i have to, thats pretty alot. hahas. but of cos, my darlings, each will get a share! and yes, don't we have plans? (:

last night i was talking to a fren. he's brought up the point that i'm ambidextereous. and he says that amazes him. i always tot there are tons of people who can write or read laterally inverted, and write equally well with both hands? anyway, the fact that i frequent bukit panjang and not compasspoint even amazes him. i must say we have many common topics, especially the fact that we only like caramel machiatto from starbucks (:

there's something here that i want to share with each and everyone :

pondering
it's love!

each and everytime i had a happy day, someone has to spoil it.
maybe it's my fault.
oh whatever, it's always my fault anyway.
everyone just seems to like the other one over me.
everyone says the other one is better.
i'm just the unfavourable one.
i'm just not loved, anywhere, by anyone.
if i'm so not needed anywhere and everywhere.
if my presence is only a nuisance.
if i'm so unappreciated,
just let me go. to anywhere where i may belong, to anywhere where mayb the plants or animals will talk to me and appreciate me.

yes, i hate myself.

common tests are finally over! like i can't wait for it to be over yesterday and now it's over.
i don deny that time flies. really fast actually. (:
sisters huiqi and jieying, jia you for ur last paper! and meet up soon!!!

more tv tv and tv. more hong kong dramas... and more korean dramas to come my way. let's enjoy life a little more before school reopen. there are many things i wanna do this holidays! (:

went to watch eragon today. i like the show, totally. just that the theatre was a little stinko. hahahs. but all in all, it was great company. jeerin, jasmine, erika, ethel, samantha, camen, yuhong and vincent. clement was with us for lunch at subway (:

i like this particular line from the show, very much.
'yesterday u were a farmer, today u are a hero, and tomorrow we shall meet again.'
don't ask me why, i just like it very much.

i don't know, but my tolerance for whiny people, is almost nearing zero. i just cannot stand ppl who loves to whine and whine non stop. can't some girls just stop being so whiny for goodness sake? i'm intolerant.

xian is coming back from bangkok tmr. hmmm.. i'm anticipating pressies? hees. sunday is canoe two star. i'm actually quite scared i can't make it? as in... after i got my 1 star, i only practiced once. and this time, it's gonna be at changi sea sports club, i'm not used to the new sea environment. i tnk i needa get a pair of shoes that will suit water activities. shall i? maybe i should.

thanks to xia darling these days. she's been putting up with my nonsense sms, and nonsense complains. i love ya darling!! muackies! (:

oh, by the way, i'm gonna meet yvette darling for some shopping soon, and most importantly... we are getting pressies for someone so dear, in china. missing ya mich!! (: thanks to yvette for these days. the pressure and stress of common tests, she is the vital energy and source of motivation for each and every paper! thanks girl! catch ya soon!! (:

'one part brave, three parts a fool.'

lovely bday cake baked by ying ying!! thanks loads! loves!
it's love!

tipsy tipsy at the ripples...
it's love!

i like this!!
it's love!

stop acting like u're ignoring!! hahhas. =)
it's love!

i was only acting!! there's no flames at all! the wind was too strong! lols
it's love!

ying tao and the pasta! hahahas!
it's love!

xian darling.me at nydc! prior to the actual day (: nice pasta!!
it's love!

yan darling.me! (: muackz
it's love!

me.xia darling!! (: muackies!
it's love!

she's mojo and i'm jojo, together we're mojojojo! loves!
it's love!

actual day with darlings at pizza hut. lovely surprise cake. (:
it's love!

OMG!!! i received emails from cambodia!!!!
Roth Chearn and Rethy! (:
sisters... did u all get it as well???

this made the best motivation for now.
i miss roth chearn.

time check: 8.47pm,
and yes, i haven started on blaw at all.
anyone can help me please?
i got the dates mixed up, i thought CMA would come first.
well, and so, yes, i haven touch blaw at all. :(

HELP!

oh, yes i hate whiny people please, back off!

i'm gonna blog those nice pics from my bday, when everyone sent me.
apparently, i dun haf any yet. hahahas.

shall go read blaw and pray for a pass.
today's fmgt was ok i thought. (:

missing my darlings.

the song we sang and wondered....

~沉默玩具~
变成了一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情
模糊我自己不愿
深深把爱情
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意

寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
这种对你的深情
我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决了拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
喔~~爱~~
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
喔~~爱~~这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是
我还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意

i had a wonderful time.
great gifts, lovely presents, lovely wishes.
thank you everyone. (:
thanks sisters!! meet up soon soon!!
thanks GR2, u all are missed, and thanks for the wishes.
swensens peeps, darlings, ah mei, my family.
actually, to be exact, everyone.

the dinner at pizza hut was good. the celebration at grandma's place today was good also.
i had alot alot of cakes i must say. hahahs. but it's ok, i love it (:

i've got some real surprises, and thanks for the effort people. the staffs from pizza hut came singing real loudly happy birthday and presented the cake. that was a real surprise. i tot they would say go toilet and bring in a cake by themselves, but..... this was a new thing. hees.. thanks xia, xian, ezah, yan, lao da and mei. and the lovely GREEN adidas watch i always wanted to get.
lao da brought back a really nice tshirt from bangkok for my bday present. (:
also thanks to chin lee, and ying tao for sharing the cost of the watch.
and most of all, i got this real surprise from chin nan. he bought me a really big present. a pair of shoes, and a pair of hp keychain that goes saying,'muackz, i love you' when pressed.
seriously, i dunno wad to react to this, because.... i... dunno.. i just dunno wad to say, but thanks alot!! (:

another surprise was mummy bought me a new phone for my bday. k800i. thank you very much. (: xian and i got the same model. maybe xia darling wants to get the same too??? hees. (:

it's the second time yuhong is sending me wishes just before my birthday ends. since he can't be the first, he would always be the last (: thanks pals. u're appreciated! (:

of all the presents, and gifts, and everything... the thing that made me felt real happy... was the message everyone left for qiuyan to compile. even though it was on soft copy, and sent thru msn.... seems to be the most effortless one, made me teared. omg. i cried cos i felt really touched by the things everyone said.


i'm loved.

~jia you and good luck for common tests people. xian darl, bon voyage and dun forget our pressies!!~

happy birthday jojo, happy birthday to me! (:

i must thank alot alot of people. to all who texted and sent regards, thank u very much. and to all that remembered, thanks lots! u are all greatly appreciated (:
most of all, to all who made the effort to made me happy(real happy), a zillion thanks!

yesterday was at second aunt's place where grandma, jeerin, ying ying, kaiwen and ching kai kor was there. i must say that i was really really really touched. there were lots of dishes to celebrate for me. and most of all, there was a lovely lovely cake specially baked by aunt and ying ying. thanks loves! red packets frm aunt and grandma, birthday card from kaiwen and a watch from ying ying. it's been a long time since i felt the word, 'family'. i love u all LOADS. (:

today was hrm paper. it was kinda ok i think, i just hope i did pretty ok.

at about 4pm, i met ying tao and xian darling. (: it was movie, 'cinderella' first. then to nydc for a real sumptuous dinner. and off we went to 'ripples', xian's friend's (gayathri) boyfriend's pub. i would say it was really a nice experience. it was the company. love them to bits!! they were the first to wish me happy birthday of cos, but subsequently i received loads of msg, from many people. thanks. (:
dinner was credits for ying tao n xian. loves LOADS!!!
movie was on me cos it was only nice if i gave a treat as well.
drinks were half on the house, thanks to gayathri n bf, and on dutch for the other half. (:

happening eh??

that's not gonna be the end of my lovely day. it's just the start of it! i have yet to meet my darlings for dinner this coming evening, which i anticipate to be the highlights of the day, and darlings, thanks alot alot for the effort. i know it isnt easy to get everyone together and planned this thing. i love u gals, LOADS!!

thanks to mei mei (JEERIN), thanks. loves!

pictures to be all up laterrr (:

off to lala land, i'm tired.

alright, i haven been blogging for certain reasons.
common tests are coming.
the stomach discomfort distracts me more than ever.
the addictive thing called DRAMAS. ( the wrong addiction at this point of time where i need to concentrate on my studies. but it's ok. 'ah wang' modern version is just too nice. i'm completely addicted to it.)

tried studying with yvette darling today. she thinks it's unproductive. but to me, i think without her, probably, i might just waste this evening away.
i attempted to eat a proper meal during dinner at chicago's with yvette.
and i did. ribeye steak with mushroom.
and yes also, i did. run the loos.
all over again n again.
when will it ever stop? for goodness sake :(

counting down hrm paper: 2days.
(addition one more day to hrm paper, it's the day where i will say bubye to 10s... it's the 20s.... oh no..)

i grabbed this from sam's blog. i like it (: she's my lovely toe.
it's love!

and i forgot to mention,
i think i have a HUGE problem with my digestive system, my intestines, my gastric or watever it's called.
i think i'm having BIG diarrohea, MAJOR stomach discomfort,
EVERYDAY!
help. :(

ezah suggested i should fast a few days to let the system rest. maybe i should just stop taking chilli, i've taken more than enough for the rest of my life. is that so? probably.

happy feet was nice. the penguins are really, REALLY cute. i like it. (:
kbox-ing with ying tao, mei and terence was really good! hahahhas. it was fun, and hilarious.

~with his presence, i never fail to feel happy. or in other words, he never fail to make me happy. i kinda felt that we can stay as best of friends like that forever. even if it may mean that we all have to move on in life, in search of the real happiness, we reamin this way, keeping each other near to the heart, and cherishing the kind of relationship we have, the things we share, the closeness we have, that we don't, with others. i love u LOADS, mr.piggie (:~

saturday was pure rotting but i kinda liked it that way. mahjong with xian darling and her two bros, then it was rotting and being couch potatoes, watching Benchwarmers and Kingdom of Heaven. then together with ezah darl and xian darl we went to lot 1. i managed to get a pair of shorts that i've always wanted, for our outdoor activities. and... it only cost $13.45, and it was Reebok. kinda worth it i would say. xian got herself one too. (:

it's now slacking in front of the com, with the mind bloated with BLAW, CMA, FMGT, HRM. gotta get my butts down and settled to get all these digested into the mind, soon. (: tmr is gonna be a long long day.... but it's gonna be worth it.. i'm gonna work! (: and i'll get to meet my darlings tmr, AND we are gonna sign up for our 2 star canoe-ing tmr. i anticipate a fruitful day. (:

zZz. till then, loves everyone.

I LOVE YING YING!
I LOVE JEERIN!
and my darlings, everyone. (:

joycie
friends and family make me complete.
anything with the sun and sea makes me happy
dark chocolates.sunflowers. dedicated unconditional love and care
"Yet doe I feare thy Nature, It is too full o' th' Milke of humane kindnesse."

Bachelor of social work (not an easy path but it will work out, 6/6 to go!)
Japan
Melbourne
Turkey
New Zealand
there's nothing i want more than world peace.

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GR2
Jeerin.
Persis.
May.
Nelson.
yan darling.
Jenny darling.
xian darling.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
ruey shan.
botak.
zhiyong.
eric khoo.
LohWC.
Gayathri.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Erika.
Jasmine.
Samantha.
Camen.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia
Serve Cambodia
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
JiSheng.

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